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“Whatever.” I groan, rolling my eyes.
“Besides, a man doesn’t kiss a woman the way you say he kissed you unless he’s interested. Look, you can either continue to obsess over how embarrassed you are, or you can pull up your big girl panties and woman up. Then let him take said panties off with his teeth.”
“You’re ridiculous.” I laugh.
“Ridiculous or not, it’s clear this guy is under your skin. I’ve never seen you so wound up over a man before. Until you let yourself explore it a little more you’re going to continue to drive yourself crazy.”
“I don’t know what it is about him, Whit. I don’t even really know him, but god... He makes me feel a certain way and I just can’t shake it.”
“Which is why you need to screw him at least once. See if the attraction is more or just on the surface.”
“You really don’t think this is a bad idea?”
“Since when is getting your kicks off with a hot guy a bad idea? At least with Thad you don’t have to worry about the future. You can have your fun and walk away.”
“That’s true.” I sigh, not really needing her reassurance as much as I let on. I already know what I want.
I meant what I said to Thad last night. It’s something I’ve been thinking about more and more over the past few days. I can’t get him out of my head on my own. Maybe with his help I can fuck him out.
“If you’re that worried about how he’ll react just behave as if nothing happened and let him be the one to broach the subject.”
“That’s not a horrible idea,” I admit. “But I’m pretty sure I’m gonna blush beet red the moment I see him.”
“You’re an actress, aren’t you?” Whit reminds me. “You have the ability to hide how you’re feeling. I’ve seen it firsthand. Just give him one of your world class performances and he’ll not suspect for even one minute that you feel any shame for your behavior last night. Hell, it will probably make him want you that much more.”
“You know what? You’re right,” I say, finally seeing things from Whitney’s perspective. “I’m making way too much of this anyway. Who cares if I got drunk and acted a little crazy? I’m proposing sex without strings. Either he’s in or he isn’t.”
“There she is.” Whit chuckles. “Welcome back.”
“Yeah. Yeah.” I laugh.
“Now go get that man. Call me when the deed is done.”
“You’ll be the first to know,” I promise. “Love you, Whit.”
“Love you too.”
I end the call and toss my cell into the passenger seat of my car. Even though I still feel uncertain and a bit unsure of myself, Whitney is right. I need to do it and get it out of my system. Maybe then I can refocus on why I’m really here and work to get back to L.A. as quickly as possible.
Thad may have turned me down last night, but even in my drunken state I could tell he wanted me. I’ve spent the better part of the day making excuses because if I’m being honest I’m scared of how that makes me feel.
Regardless, I’ve never been one to shy away from what I want and I’m sure as hell not about to start now.
