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“What would we tell her?” Faye mutters.
“I don’t know.” I swallow. “I’m not thinking clearly here. It’s difficult around you, Faye. You’re too beautiful. Too captivating. Too sexy. I used to laugh at the phrase ‘muse,’ thinking maybe it was a line, something artistic men said to get women into bed. But you’re it, Faye. You’re my muse. If I think about photographing another woman…well, I don’t. I can’t, not since I came back, not since I saw you.”
Careful, the cautious part of me snaps.
She nods slowly, her grip getting even tighter.
“Do you mean that?”
“I’m not lying to you,” I say firmly.
I never will.
But I’m withholding how badly I truly want her.
Is that lying?
“So you don’t think we should tell her?” she prompts.
I sigh, letting go of her hand. It’s the question that makes me do it, but also the fact that my seed thinks contact means it’s time to make this happen, to grab her, lay her on the desk, tear off her pants, and bring my slick manhood to her even slicker slit.
“I don’t know.” I hate the indecision flickering through me. “I’ve never felt like this before.”
“Not even with Maddie?”
I flinch, leaning back in my chair.
Faye looks at me steadily.
Maddie was Lola’s mother.
“I’m sorry,” she says a moment later.
“You don’t need to apologize,” I tell her.
You deserve to know everything.
“I know it must be hard for you to talk about her.”
I shake my head, though she’s right. It’s always been difficult to talk about Lola’s mother, but not because Faye suspects.
Maybe she assumes there’s this great romance lurking in the background of my life, a tragedy that stole a storybook happy-ever-after from me.
“It’s not what you think,” I tell her.
She looks at me closely. “It isn’t?”
“No. And to answer your other question, no. I didn’t feel this way with Maddie. I’ve never felt this way with anybody.”
Careful, careful.
“Really?” she says.
“Really,” I tell her, my voice certain.
“Me neither,” she whispers. “But I thought….”
She trails off, her voice getting low, but I can tell what she wants to say.
