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“And what are the big things then? Favorite foods and movies?”
“Nope. It’s so much deeper than that. Okay, when you two are lying in bed—and don’t even pretend like you two aren’t sleeping together because it’s written all over your face—so when you’re in bed just lying there holding each other, what goes through your mind?”
That I never want this to end. That I’ve never been so happy or scared in my life. That my heartbeat sounds like it’s in sync with his.“Getting mighty personal, aren’t we?”
“I’m sorry. I just know Kenneth is worried that Jerry might get in his own way and…well…I’m worried you might do the same. It’d be a shame if you let love slip away because neither of you want to be the one to admit this is something real, something good.”
She wanted Shanda to stop, but that didn’t mean what she was saying was wrong. Reanna was afraid of saying how she felt. What if she did and Jerry didn’t feel the same way? She couldn’t stop thinking of the words he’d said: ‘I don’t want anyone to know about us.’ She said she just wanted to forget it, but the truth was, she couldn’t. What if he felt that way again? It would kill me. Or at least it would remove what trust she had in him. And once that was gone, she wasn’t one who gave it back easily. I don’t let people burn me twice any more. Been there, done that and regret it. She wasn’t going to make Jerry pay for the mistakes she made with Bobby, but she also wasn’t the naïve girl she used to be years ago either.
“I promise, it won’t be me who walks away,” she said.
“But will you sit back and let him?” Shanda asked. “Sometimes people need a little push.”
“Like the one you’re giving me? Because this doesn’t feel little,” she smirked.
“I’m just showing you how it’s done,” Shanda laughed.
“I appreciate it, but trust me, Jerry and I are okay the way we are.”
“Funny thing about love and marriage, it seems to sneak up on you when you’re not looking for it,” Shanda stated.
Please, not again.“So glad you and Kenneth found each other. So, let’s get back to what we’re supposed to be doing: planning that wedding.”
“Fine, but only if you promise me that you’ll remember everything I said.”
“I will.” If it means we don’t ever have to talk about it.
Jerry was surprisedto see Kenneth in Boston. “Thought you’d forgotten your way here,” he teased.
“Believe it or not, Shanda and I come here more often than you know.”
“Really? I never thought Shanda would like being in Boston,” Jerry said. Shanda seemed to like her country living too much.
“I thought so too, but she’s enjoying her time here too. Can’t say that it’s her favorite spot, but she doesn’t hate it.”
“Thinking of moving back here permanently?” Jerry asked.
“You never know what the future holds. Who would’ve thought I’d be living in a place where my closest neighbors were cows?” Kenneth laughed.
Sure as hell not me.
He and Kenneth hung out a lot more when Kenneth lived in Boston. They had some good times over the years, going out to clubs and meeting women. Kenneth was tied down now, and even though Shanda wasn’t with him, what they could do tonight was limited.
“Since you’re here alone, did you want to see if the others wanted to get together?” Jerry asked.
“We all just saw each other Thursday.”
“It’s not like I was suggesting we invite Mother,” he laughed.
“If I were you, I’d avoid her for a while. She was on a roll.”
When isn’t she? “Please tell me I wasn’t the topic the entire night.”
“Nope.”
“Good,” Jerry said.
“Reanna picked up the slack. She’s lucky she didn’t show. Mother would’ve dragged her off and asked her a million questions. It was bad enough that Shanda had to fill in.”
