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I shoved him onto his back. "Not your bitch, boy. Besides, I like a little pain."
"Yeah?" He scooted up and over in the bed, aiming for the middle. "Because I do too. Pretty sure I can take your dick without all the prep."
"Oh yeah?" I reached over for the bottle of lube. "Because I'm starting to feel inspired. Or are you calling my dick small?"
"Nope." His eyes dropped to it, then slowly made their way back up. "Before I took that break, I was seeing a guy. You were with Nari, so I took a guess that you hadn't messed around like that."
"Thought she was the only person you'd ever had sex with?"
Talin shrugged. "You expect me to believe your fingers stayed outside her body at all times? Not buying it. We assumed it was a loophole in the penetration rules."
I could feel my dick starting to stir again. "And I heard you spent a lot of time researching."
"Mm." He crooked a finger, beckoning me closer. "I had a year with my family, and a stack of books to prepare me for what I was missing. One of them was for your eroticism class, because my mentor wanted me to see all my options. When I wanted to avoid my brother, I claimed I had to study. I may have also spent a lot of time with my fist around my dick."
Yep, I was hard again. Pouring a handful of lube into my palm, I sealed the bottle with one hand and tossed it toward him. Then I sat up to stroke it on. Talin's eyes followed the movement of my hand.
"Wanna tell me about this former boyfriend I'm being compared to?" I asked.
"Not really," he said. "Besides, I promise you're prettier."
"Not pretty," I corrected. "I'll accept beautiful..." I crawled closer. "Sexier." Then I moved between his legs. "Better." And I slid my still-slick hand across his dick.
Talin moaned, the sound vibrating straight to my balls. "All of that," he promised.
"You love him?" I asked, needing him to say no.
His eyes found mine. "I thought I did. I was getting there, until I caught him sneaking around with girls. Only problem was that he'd told me he didn't like them. He only wanted men, and he was only interested in me." He licked at his lips. "He always said that after Choosing, I'd have to introduce him to my family. We could both follow the Path of the Word, which meant we could stay together."
"What?" I asked, lifting my hand from his dick. "He thought fucking you would get him a higher position?"
"Welcome to my world," Talin said, guiding my hand back to his now-hard dick. "So, listen really close, because I will probably never say this again. I trust you, Eladehl. I think that you judge me on who I am, not who I'm related to. I honestly believe that you will stand beside me through anything. Most of all, Itrustyou to never betray me unless I do it first, and I have no intention of giving up the three people I finally feel safe with."
"Making love," I whispered, leaning in for his mouth.
Because those words finally made sense. Talin wasn't saying he loved me. He was saying he felt like he could finally try again. He needed me to be everything I was, but he was offering a safe place to fall. His version of love was to fit in our puzzle, andthatwas what he desired. To be loved for himself, not the things people assumed about him.
"I want to hold you when you come," I told him. "To feel you cling to me."
"I want you to make me forget there was ever a man before you."
When my lips found his, the power was gone, replaced by something softer. Gentler. This time, he kissed me like he was surrendering, and I added him to the very short list of people I would keep safe. He didn't need to tell me that man had broken his heart. He just wanted me to erase him completely.
And I could do that. Slowly, I lowered myself against his chest, easing my hips between his knees. I could feel his hardness crushed against my belly, but I didn't stop kissing him. Slow, deep, sensual kisses that made him gasp for air between them. The kind that encouraged his hands to slide into my hair.
He'd taken care of me, and now it was my turn to take care of him. Pressing a hand down over his shoulder, I held him there as I reached lower with the other hand. My thumb hooked on the base of my dick and I angled it down, sliding the swollen and overly sensitive head beneath his balls and lower. Until I reached that slight pucker. Then I nudged closer.
"I've never done this before," I warned him.
"I trust you," he said.
I pressed, feeling him spread. Slowly. I wanted to drive into him, but I would never hurt him. He'd just given me the power to, but that didn't mean I had to take it. His ass stretched, letting me in, and Talin groaned in the back of his throat. The sound was approval, so I kept going.
"Hold me," I whispered. "I'm going to take care of you, Talin."
His arms wrapped around my back and his lips found my shoulder. When he kissed, his body relaxed, and I slid deep inside him. Heat surrounded my dick, and he was so tight. I didn't stop until my balls were against his ass, though. And then I waited for him to relax again.
"I'm ok," he promised.
