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Kace laid on the spare room bed shirtless, wearing only a pair of black, cotton sweats, my son on his bare chest. Denver in only his diaper, one that looked like it had been changed, was bright-eyed, cooing, and beating his tiny fist lightly on Kace’s muscular form.
This is what I want forever.
The thought came fast and free.
When Kace turned and gave me a sexy grin, It solidified what I wanted. But how could that ever be when I had so much baggage and he deserved so much more.
But yearning swept through my body, along with desire when I looked into his dazzling, brown eyes.
The last couple of weeks had felt very domestic.
Even though I argued, the guys had insisted I take at least a month off work and I could have more if I wanted.Paid.It was unbelievable sometimes that this was my new life.
One I was beginning to truly love.
That was probably why I was so scared that it was going to come crashing down at any minute.
All too good to be true or at least stay that way.
I was home with the baby every day but the ladies came by and a few times had dragged me out to lunch to get out of the house. Kace went to work but he’d come back to my place for dinner every night and so far had not slept one night at his place. I was glad it had an extra room and bed for him, but I was beginning to worry he was going to get sick of us.
Even though he never seemed like it at all.
He didn’t even ask anymore and I didn’t either. We just spent the evenings together and he was usually still up when I went to sleep, then he would still be there in the morning. And there had not been any nightmares.
And it was all because of him being close. He kept them at bay.
So much was changing around us, including what had happened a week earlier. Landon had come by to have a more in-depth talk and get the divorce papers going. It wasn’t an easy conversation and I hadn’t even shown him the pictures yet. Nor had I shown Kace.
Something I planned to change.
I knew it was only a matter of time before I might have to let Landon have them and I wanted to share with Kace first. We had talked in depth about our lives recently and had gotten to know each other very well. It might not be intimate in a sexual way, but it was intimate in an emotional way.
If I showed him the pictures would it change? Would he think I’d been weak? What if that was the turning point where he felt like my shit was too much and walked away?
Losing Kace, even as my friend, would be devastating. But the thought of there never being more with him was also depressing.
I knew in my gut that he is the only man I would ever want to give the chance again.
“What are you thinking about over there?”
His voice sent a flutter through my stomach as a swarm of butterflies took flight through my body and swirled as a longing so strong took hold.
“How lucky I am to have you as a friend.”
It was the truth, but it hadn’t been what was on my mind when he asked and the frown that was etched on his face told me he didn’t believe me either, but there was something else in his gaze. Nervous energy raced through me and I knew I was botching up a special moment. I wanted to start over and walk back into the room again, letting the scene that I had witnessed seconds before play out again.
“I think there was more to it, but I will address your explanation,” he started as Denver let out another small cry. Kace didn’t bat an eye at the sound as he stood with my baby in his arms.
The man was a natural.
“We are both lucky,” he said as he swiftly moved toward me, a gleam in his eye. “Our friendship is one we both should be thankful for, but honey, don’t start lying to yourself or me when you try and act like that’s all that is going on.”
I sucked in a mass of air like a lifeline.
“I’m s-scared,” I fumbled quietly.
“Me too, baby, but I’m not letting you two go.” The challenge glistening in his eye and his words had my heart pounding.
