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His gaze is blazing. He is lost in the sight of his cock sheathing in and out of me. I am lost in the sensation of him fucking me so wildly. The pleasure is building up.
“I want to fuck you a thousand times, baby girl,” he pants, driving harder into me, my pussy clenching with pleasure as his fingers rub my clit. His eyes flick up, meeting mine. “I want to fuck you until you forget the past and the future.” He drives harder into me as he talks. “And what universe we are in.”
His words are like magic. Always are. The blaze inside me explodes, and I cry out, again and again, in synch with every thrust of his hips, as the orgasm barrels through me stronger than ever before.
I grab his arms and pull him toward me, catching his mouth as he keeps fucking me hard.
This is the first time I am being properly “fucked” by a man. My gorgeous man…
“You are mine,” I pant between the kisses.
Tongues, lips, teeth, biting, kissing, grabbing. I open my legs wider to take in more of him. My hands slide down his torso, to his ass, grabbing it, squeezing it, and pulling him deeper inside me. And in a moment, Kai grunts loudly as he comes, pushing into me with force several more times and collapsing on top of me.
We breathe heavily, sweaty and smiling. I didn’t see stars, but I think I might have a heart attack.
Kai rolls off me and onto his back, then finds my hand and entwines his fingers with mine, smiling.
I wonder what relationships people would have if our lives were shorter. Much shorter. If we only had years to live, months even—would it make us braver, bolder, gentler?
We lie on the bed for some time—two starfishes on the blue sheets, holding hands.
How long do we have?
I prop myself on my elbow.
Kai wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me tight against him.
I was silly back on the Eastside, thinking that I need his confession to know how he feels.
I know now. It’s in his gaze that’s so intense. It’s in his voice when he whispers my name. It’s in his hands that stroke so gently. He came to Ayana for me, despite an army of guards.
My gaze slides up and down his torso, the tattoos, the bruises from the fight that would’ve looked horrible if not for his tattooed skin. I wish I’d stayed at Deene after that fateful night so Kai didn’t have the scars or have to go through the pain of having them tattooed. But I love his body even more now. I love him with all the scars, and in dew time, I will heal all the ones he has inside.
I trace my finger along the flower on his heart and the butterfly wing.
Petal…
I have to tell him. Now. Because we might never get another chance.
The last thought almost breaks my heart. But his warm gaze wipes away any hesitation.
“I love you, Kai,” I say, not taking my eyes off him.
His expression changes. The smile falls away just a little.
“I don’t mean to scare you with these words,” I say quieter, “but you have to know. You probably do. Ihopeyou do, Kai.”
He slides his free hand into my hair to the back of my head and pulls me closer.
Our faces are inches apart. I try to smile. Feelings are not easy to confess. Ours have come a long way, with scars and pain. But he needs to hear it. Now more than ever. He searches my eyes as if wanting to hear more to make sure. And I have so much more to tell him.
“I wish I could blow up this entire island just so everyone left us alone.” I chuckle to hide uneasiness. “I ran four years ago because I was a coward. And because I thought I could leave all that mess behind and start fresh.”
I have to pause between sentences to hold back the feelings that are suffocating me.
Kai is silent, only gazing at me, waiting.
I take a deep breath. “Because I thought what I felt for you was not meant to be, and it was easier to stay away than to see you every day with someone else.” I inhale and exhale deeply, trying to calm my heart that seems too big for my chest. “I was wrong.” I cast my eyes down. “Because with all the awful things that happened afterward—the Change and the tragedies that should have overridden the ones before—the memories that made me the happiest were the moments you and I shared back at Deene.”
