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My inner muscles start to flutter and Alex groans. Hitting that deep spot inside of me again and again, I pinch my eyes closed and see white dots bursting behind my lids.
He lifts my leg to rest on his shoulder, and I open for him even more. Pressing down on my clit with his thumb, I’m gone.
Screaming into the wind, my body splits in two as I fall apart beneath him.
Pumping in and out of me, Alex rides through my orgasm, chasing his own. But I feel it building in me again, and when he slams into me one final time, a guttural groan fills my ears and I clamp down on him again, another orgasm hitting me like a bomb as my eyes roll back in my head.
All I see is black.
And when it fades, all I see is green and gold swirling behind my lids.
I can’t escape his eyes.
They see me. They see everything.
Alex peppers me with kisses across my chest and up the column of my neck. The scruff of his beard scratches against my sensitive skin and I sigh, loving the friction.
“So beautiful. So perfect,” he whispers, his lips brushing the shell of my ear.
Kissing his way across my jaw, he bites my chin, and then captures my mouth in a searing kiss.
Pulling out of me, I feel a sense of loss immediately. Like a piece of me is being taken away when I had just found it.
Alex falls to the ground next to me, and pulls me on top of him.
Keeping my eyes closed, I drape my arm around his middle and rake my nails back and forth to make sure he’s still there. I feel like at any moment I’ll blink, and I’ll be by myself again, only dreaming that all of this is happening.
Stroking my back, Alex twirls the end of my braid around his fingers and tugs gently.
My eyes flutter open, and I blink to adjust to the bright sun. With my face against his chest, I eye his left arm splayed out on the grass.
“What does that one mean?” I ask softly, still in a trance.
Lifting his arm, he turns it this way and that way, studying the compass tattoo himself before resting it back on the grass.
“Guidance. It reminds me to keep going. Keep moving. Keep searching.”
“Searching for what?”
“Everything,” he says simply. “Anything.”
Rolling my head on his chest, I prop my chin up on the back of my hand and look down at him. “Do you plan on running?”
“No.” He shakes his head. “It’s meant to keep searching for myself. There’s always more to know, and I want to believe that I’m guided in the right direction when I need it.”
“What about this one?” I ask, running my fingers over the block letters on his ribs under his heart spelling DON’T.
“That one is to remind me not to become like my dad.” He swallows, looking away for a moment. “I told you he was a drunk. Well, I don’t want to be that. I don’t want to search for answers at the bottom of a bottle when they can be found through hard work. I’ve worked for everything I have, and I never want to succumb to something that will make me weak. That will make me a coward and a disappointment.”
“Alex,” I whisper, tracing the letters. “You’re not him. You’re your own man. The man your mom raised you to be. A better man.”
Closing his eyes, he strokes my back soothingly, and I feel his heart pounding steadily beneath me.
“Thank you,” he chokes out.
“I mean it,” I tell him, placing a soft kiss to his chest and laying my head back down.
I know he has another one on his other ribcage, but I’m lying on it right now, and I don’t have the energy to move. That one will have to wait for another time.
