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She spins around and looks at me wide-eyed, “No! “I’m going to go for today. I’m sorry Jamie. I had fun. Thank you. It was a nice distraction for a while.”
She’s gone while I stand there, stunned. I walk to the whisky sitting on the counter and pour a glass. words repeat in my brain. ‘Distraction.’ A fucking distraction, that’s all I was. It’s my own fucking fault. I knew falling for her would lead to a world of hurt because she’s incapable of anything real. I realize I’m Chase. I’ve turned into him and now I suddenly feel sorry for that sad man. This must be how he felt, except he slept with her for three years. It’s as if she took me higher than I’ve ever been and just dropped me to the earth. I fell hard. Eight whiskeys later, I came up with a brilliant drunken plan. I’m going to her room. The entire walk and elevator ride to her room, I try to talk myself out of it. I know this is a bad idea. However, I can’t stop myself. I need her.
Knocking on the door, I bet she knows who it is. Will she open the door at one a.m? My heart is pounding out of my chest.
She does, and she’s wearing a dark red satin robe that hangs to her mid-thigh, her beautiful brown hair flowing past her shoulders. Looking at me with a look of confusion, she let me in. “Jamie? Why are you here?”
Grabbing her face, I pull her into me and kiss her. She feels this too, she can’t stop it. Opening her robe, I see that she’s naked underneath and I couldn’t be more pleased. Not taking my lips off of her, I reach between her legs and rub her clit. She moans loudly as she throws her head back. Instantly, I drop to my knees and replace my finger with my tongue. My God, she tastes so good. Everything about this woman is sexier than any woman before her. I have to break into Fort Stella. I need her. I can’t be without her.
Pushing her against the wall, I kiss her before she changes her mind. Quickly, I undo my pants and lift her onto my dick. Thrusting into her with as much force as I can handle, she cries out as she orgasms, but I don’t stop.
“Stella, is it not good?”
“It’s good.”
“Just good?”
“No.”
“Am I the best you’ve ever had?”
“Yes.”
“Then why? Why are you making it so hard to fuck you? I just want to watch you come, make you feel good. I won’t hurt you.”
“Maybe not intentionally,” she says.
That’s the truth right there. She’s so terrified of getting hurt. I kiss her, I kiss her hard and demanding knowing this might be the last time. Thrusting into her, I can’t fight it anymore and I come inside her. I don’t want to just fuck her. I will take her any way that I can get her. Finally, I stopped kissing her. I stared at her as I realized my worst fears.
She couldn’t look at me, “You can go now, we’re done here.”
What the fuck. Again, I feel used. It’s my own fucking fault.
“Stella, please,” I beg.
“You wanted to get laid. You got it, now go.”
I’m sure she saw the pain in my eyes. I zipped my pants up and watched her as I got ready to leave.
“I’m going to see other women since it seems you want nothing to do with me on any level.”
“That’s probably a good idea, Jamie.”
I didn’t say another word. She opened the door, and I walked out.
Ouch. Fuck, she’s a bitch. A cold-hearted, beautiful fucking bitch that I’m in love with. I’m so pissed. We are so good together, but she won’t admit it. She won’t let it happen. I know she was abused, but this is ridiculous. I’ve met no one more guarded than she is. I called my buddy who lives here and asked him to meet me in the bar downstairs. As I walk downstairs, I text Stella.
To: Stella… Before I fuck another woman, I want to check that you are sure about your choice.
From: Stella… I’m sure. Go fuck whoever you want. We are done.
She really doesn’t care about me at all. It really was just sex. I mean nothing to her, only a good time. Damn Stella, you are a piece of work. God damn it, I’m in love with her.
Walking into the bar, I see Paul sitting at a table, drinking a beer. I motion to the bartender, “Michelob Ultra please.”
A concerned look wipes across Paul’s face, “What’s wrong?”
“It’s that obvious?”
