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Ohmygoshsheiskissingme!
We were kissing!
Kissssssing!
Jax and Kennedy sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!
Okay, we weren’t sitting in a tree, we were standing next to a rock, but it didn’t matter because I’d just had my first kiss. My first kiss with my best friend, Kennedy Lost.
I freaking love summer camp!
I didn’t know what to do, so I just stood there with my arms at my sides, wondering if this was what it was supposed to feel like. It was as if my heart was going to tear out of my chest and do somersaults on the sidewalk, as if I could run a million laps around the camp and still not be out of breath, as if I was flying.Am I flying?
Am I kissing her back?
I couldn’t tell. I didn’t know how to kiss. My older brother always told me I wouldn’t have to even worry about kissing until I was like forty-nine years old, and I was nowhere near forty-nine years old.
She stopped kissing me.
Dang.
Do that again.
I stood there like a dork, unsure what to do. Kennedy stepped back, and her cute cheeks turned red. I didn’t remember her cheeks being so cute last summer, but that was the thing about Kennedy Lost, I supposed—she got better and better each year.
“Basorexia,” she mumbled. She mumbled! Like me. My heart was still trying to run away.
I narrowed my eyes. “I don’t know what that means.”
She smiled. “I looked up a lot of words in the last year, and basorexia was one of them. It means a desire to kiss.”
Oh.
My new favorite word.
I couldn’t form words because I was too busy looking at Kennedy’s perfect cheeks. She combed her fingers through her loose curls and kept pushing her cheeks higher when she smiled. “I just really love this gift, Jax, so I felt basorexia. Thank you.”
She came back in toward me, only this time she gave me a hug.
Double dang.
“Sorry if that upset you,” Kennedy said, growing nervous, which was weird because I hadn’t known a person like Kennedy could ever be nervous. “But that was my first kiss, and Yoana was telling me your first kiss should always be with someone you care about, and well, you’re my best friend and all, and I thought—”
She stopped her words, because I kissed her. This time I knew it was me kissing and not just me standing still, all because I had intense basorexia.
16
Kennedy
Present day
I wentout to the field of flowers every day that week. I’d sit in the middle of the beauty and practice my breathing.One breath in, one breath out, heart still beating, I’m still here.
I’d stay in that field as long as possible, feeling as if I was returning to my roots, getting back to the person I used to be. Late one evening, as I sat amidst the daisies, Jax appeared, looking a bit shaken up. The moment he noticed me, he took a step backward, as if he was going to retreat, but some kind of heaviness sat in his eyes as he stared my way.
I wondered if he saw the heaviness in my eyes, too.
I patted the spot beside me for him to join, but I had strong doubts that he would take the invitation.
