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I don't know how we end up outside. He must've carried me because I don't remember moving. I'm clinging on to him for dear life, unwilling to let go of my best friend and the love of my life.
"Camille," he whispers, and I step away, tilting my head to look at him. I sniffle, wiping my snotty nose with the back of my hand. His brown eyes are full of sorrow, mirroring the heartbreak anyone can see in mine. He's crying; I've never seen him cry before. "I love you, baby. So much. Please, don't stay in your room crying over me, please, Cam.” He chokes on a sob. "I need you to take life by the fucking balls and make the rest of high school your bitch. Have fun, and when you go to college, I want you to have the time of your life." His lips crash against mine, his kiss tasting of spearmint and salt from our tears. I should be worried about kissing him in front of our parents’, but right now I don’t care.
It's our final kiss, the final action that causes my heart to shatter completely. He's my soulmate, and I'm so deeply, madly, crazy in love with him. He's leaving and taking my heart with him, and I'll be stuck here waiting for the day he returns with my heart in his hands.
My parents and Spencer are outside with us, hugging Dean and his parents goodbye. While they say their goodbyes, I stand there, unable to move.
This is worse than death. At least with death, it's final, and yes, I'd miss him, but I wouldn't spend the next however many years thinking about him and wondering what he's doing and who he's doing it with.
His parents hug me goodbye, but I'm too frozen in place and numb that I can't recall if I say anything or even wave.
Dean hugs Spence, then returns to me, taking my face into his hands. "I've always loved you, Cam, and I always will. I promise I will come back to you, and our hearts will be one again. It's always been you, and it always will be,” he whispers against my lips, kissing me once more before pulling away. I'm aware he's kissing me in front of our parents, but I can't bring myself to care.
"You better come back to me, dammit." I hiccup. Spencer comes to my side for moral support.
"I will. You can count on that. There's no way you can ever get rid of me this easily."
What a bittersweet feeling to fall in love so young.
"I love you so much, Dean. You'll have my heart forever."
"Close your eyes, baby. Picture us in the lighthouse, happy and laughing. Don't cry, because in our memories we're together, laughing and having the time of our life in the lighthouse. That's how I want you to remember me." I sniffle, closing my eyes, relishing in the feel of his lips all over my face.
He kisses my lips, my forehead, my eyelids, my cheeks, and nose.
When I open my eyes again, he's gone, and my vision becomes blurred by tears.
I think I scream. I'm not sure. I'm breaking down. That much I know for sure. I don't even remember Spencer leaving, but when I look up, I see my mom. She wraps her arms around me and hugs me tightly, supporting my weight as I fall against her and make myself hoarse from crying.
"It'll be okay, sweetie. I promise it'll be okay." She kisses the top of my head and rubs my back. She's trying to help, but she's not. It won't be okay; it'll never be okay.
I'm experiencing my first heartbreak, and she is saying that it’ll be okay?
Her words make me furious.
I don’t stop crying.
Not even when I go home.
Not even when I shower.
Not even when I go to sleep.
Even when I wake up the next day, I am still crying.
My heart is missing, and I continue to feel the ache every single day. I am living without a heart.
My heart has been stolen from my body and is living in England.
Little do I know that I wouldn't get my heart back until many years later, and the person who returns my heart would be a baby boy named Luca.
And little do I know, all our promises would be broken.
TWENTY-FOUR
NOW
Camille
