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Chase's smirked. "I kinda figured. Hurry 'cause I need to go too."
"You mean..."
"Baby, we're gonna travel the world together. Live together. Sleep and eat together. And yes, share one bathroom."
He made her feel like an innocent. She pushed down her insecurity and did her business while Chase brushed his teeth and then they traded places.
Once they were under the spray of the hot water, her lover started his story as he lathered her long hair, massaging her scalp lovingly as he shared his own intimate memories.
"It was almost two years ago now I guess. We were in LA for a shoot and some promotional gigs. Jax and I had been growing closer and closer, but neither of us had acknowledged that our friendship felt like it was changing. I think we were both confused about the growing attraction we had for each other, especially since both of us had a pretty steady stream of women coming and going at that point."
Emma worked to push down the jealously that reared up listening to her lover talk so casually about sleeping with so many others before her.
Chase continued, unaware his words had given her pause. "It was a Friday night. I'd begged Jaxson to go out dancing with me. I was restless, needing something, not knowing what. He refused saying he was tired so I went out alone. I went to a trendy club and right away had a crowd hitting on me. It was the first time..."
He paused so long she looked over her shoulder at him. She couldn't read the expression on his face. "Chase?"
He smiled then, a sad, apologetic smile that confused her. "I was an idiot that night, Em. I drank too much. Popped a few pills someone gave me. I never even knew what they were. I had sex with a couple women in a dark corner of the club. I didn't even get their names. I was about to leave when this really hot guy came up and started hitting on me. I'd been feeling closer to Jaxson, but we'd never acted on it and in my stupor of the night, I thought it might be a good idea to try the whole same-sex thing with the hottie who seemed to want me."
Emma knew Chase enough to know that something bigger than his first gay encounter had happened that night. She was patient, enjoying his massages to her scalp, moving down to her shoulders, soapy hands on her breasts, tummy, hips... his hands were everywhere and she loved it.
He continued when he was ready. "He took me to his apartment that wasn't far from the club. The second I got there I knew I was in trouble. As soon as he locked the door, he turned and grabbed me, kissing me brutally. At first, it was passionate, but then he bit my lip hard enough to make it bleed. All I could think about was that I had a shoot the next day and Roberta was gonna kick my ass.
"Then the real fun started. He started stripping me in the living room. We never made it to a bed. At first I went along, but when he shoved me to my knees and jammed his dick down my throat so far I almost threw up things went from bad to worse. Keep in mind I was drunk and wasted. I tried to fight him off but... shit he was strong."
Emma's heart raced. Her Chase had been raped. She knew it and it broke her heart. She turned and hugged him hard, hanging on to him as the hot water sluiced over their soapy bodies. She didn't need him to say any more, but he went on with his story anyway, his voice a monotone of steadiness that told her he was repeating it on auto-pilot, trying not to internalize his words.
"He kept me there until morning. He fucked me so hard I bled. I had bruises all over from where he'd restrained me with force. I remember thinking how pissed Jaxson was going to be. In my insecurities, I thought it would be because I'd screwed up the shoot. When I took a cab back to the hotel early in the morning, I went straight to his room. I still remember collapsing into his arms as soon as he opened the door. I'd held it together pretty well until then, but as soon as I saw the horror on his face as he realized how fucked up I was I burst out crying like a little girl.
"That was the day he changed from my friend to my Dom. It took weeks for me to heal physically, but our relationship changed forever that day. He was furious I'd put myself in danger. That I'd gone with a stranger. I was a hot mess. I needed his dominance so much that I think in some ways, I’d been purposefully taking risks to get his attention. That night was the first time we talked about me handing over control to him. Ironically, I think he was most angry that he wouldn't get to be my first... well, you know. He lost it when he found out the asshole hadn't even used condoms. He'd fucked me bareback.
"In spite of the trauma I’d gone through, it felt so damn good to have Jax taking care of me. One night a few weeks later, as soon as I'd healed from the shit the asshole had done to me, Jaxson got out the paddle and told me it was time to learn my lesson about personal safety. He paddled my ass raw that night, lecturing me the whole time about how important I was. About how I was never to put myself in danger like that again. When it was over, he scooped me into his arms and he sat and rocked me while I cried. He reassured me that all was forgiven and then he kissed me. I mean really kissed me and I'm pretty sure I've loved him since that minute. It just took us awhile to admit it. We still didn't start making love until months later.
"Jaxson insisted on taking me to the doctor every month for blood tests to make sure I hadn't contracted some shitty disease. What I hated the most about those doctor's visits was that he would paddle me again before we left for the doctor so I'd have a reminder as I sat there getting blood drawn about exactly why I was there.
"It was the night of the last test when I'd gotten my six month clean bill of health that he drove me home to his apartment in New York City. The second we got in the apartment we were all over each other. It was like someone had shot a gun at the start of a race. We both just knew it was time. We didn't leave his bedroom for a couple of days, kinda like how we've been hanging out here with you."
Emma had listened quietly, patiently, as Chase shared the important story with her. A part of her brain told her she should feel like an outsider in the threesome. That she was intruding in the men's love affair, but in her heart, she believed what Jaxson had told her over and over. Emma was the glue the men needed to hold them together.
"So, why didn't you guys just stick together after that?"
"We tried for a little while, but we were honest with each other. We were both still attracted to women. Neither of us was ready to really settle down or go public and have to deal with the fallout."
That alarmed her. "But... well then why are you going to go public now? Aren't you still worried?"
He cupped her face as water fell on their shoulders, splashing stray drops of water.
"Honey, we're ready now because you're here. Because for the first time we found someone that makes us feel whole. I know it's weird because Jax and I have been having sex now for over a year, but I've never considered myself gay. Not that there is anything wrong with that, because there's not. I just knew it was more complicated than that. It took us some experimentation to figure it all out."
She wanted to press him more, but the water was starting to get cool. The old house's plumbing was sub-standard.
"Now, let's get you rinsed off and out of here. We have a busy day ahead."
"But, can't you just give me one little..."
The crack of his palm connecting with her wet ass was so fast she didn't have time to prepare.
"Jaxson said no. I said no. Don't press me, little girl or we'll extend your punishment another day."
