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This was the one time ever in my life that I would rather be talking to my mother than taking my boyfriend to my room.
“It’s no trouble,” Noah said. He apparently felt the same way.
My mother dusted her hands off. “I’m finished. There’s nothing more to do. Go on,” she said, waving us away and shutting the conversation down. It would happen that she’d extend a grand gesture of trust when what I really wanted was more answers from her. But Noah and I had been dismissed and if we didn’t leave, she might get suspicious.
Once we were alone in my room, I closed the door almost all the way, turned to Noah and said, “Holy shit.”
“Well put.”
I was completely overwhelmed, and backed up onto my bed. “Where’d you find it?”
“A random box of my mother’s things.”
I rubbed my forehead. “So they knew each other.”
“Seems that way. Where’s the picture?”
I went to my desk and took it out from the drawer, then handed it to Noah. “How did you know it was my grandmother?” I asked him.
He looked up at me, clearly perplexed. “Seriously?”
“Yeah . . .”
“You don’t see the resemblance?”
I glanced over at the picture again. Something bothered me about it, but it wasn’t that.
“When was this taken?”
He flipped the photograph over. “1987.” He paused. “My mother would have been in university,” he said. “At Cambridge.”
“Wait,” I said as an idea dawned. “Your parents went there together, didn’t they?”
“Yes,” Noah said slowly.
“Can you ask your dad? Maybe he remembers this.” I indicated the picture.
“He won’t talk about her.” Noah’s voice went flat.
“But—”
“He won’t,” he said again. Then, “I could try Ruth, maybe. She was there also.”
One look at him told me I wouldn’t get any further, not unless I pushed, and I wasn’t sure if I should. Not about his family.
I looked back at the picture in my hands. Then wandered out of my room and into the hallway. Noah followed. I glanced down at the photograph and up at my grandmother’s portrait that hung on the wall and then I realized what was off.
“She looks exactly the same,” I said.
Noah’s eyes followed mine. It was a long time before either of us spoke.
“They couldn’t have been studying there at the same time,” I said, once we were back in my room. I sat back down on my bed. “My grandmother would’ve been living in the States when your mother was in school.”
“But she used to go to London every year when your mum was growing up. Maybe they met on one of those trips?”
“I guess, but they seem kind of . . . familiar, don’t they?” I said, staring at the photograph. “Like friends.”
“Everyone seems that way in pictures.”
I rubbed my forehead. “Why take a picture with someone you barely know at all, then? It’s weird.”
Noah’s eyebrows knitted together. “Is it possible she may have gone to London more than your mother knew?”
I sighed. “At this point, anything’s possible,” I said, and paused. “Maybe she was immortal.”
At that, Noah cracked a smile. “I was going to suggest ‘time traveler,’ but, sure.” He stretched his arms casually behind his head, exposing a sliver of stomach above the low waist of his jeans.
Torture. I cleared my throat and looked back at the photograph. “My mom said the portrait is the only picture she has of my grandmother. She’d die if she saw yours.”
Noah’s smile vanished. His expression made me want to talk about something else.
“Do you still have the pendant?” I asked.
“Yes.” The planes of his face were smooth. “Do you want it back?”
I did not. “It’s safer with you,” I said. “I’m afraid I’d lose it.” Or throw it away. “I was just wondering if maybe you found out anything else?”
He gave a single shake of his head before asking, “What’s your mother’s maiden name?”
“Sarin, why?”
“I’m going to have Charles look into this,” he said, indicating the picture.
“And Charles would be . . .”
“The private investigator.”
“Did he turn up anything on Jude?”
Noah looked away. “Dead end after dead end. Did you find the answers you were looking for in that book?”
“I haven’t had a chance to read it yet,” I said nonchalantly.
A half-smile tugged at Noah’s mouth. “You fell asleep, didn’t you?”
I lifted my chin. “No.”
“What page?”
“I didn’t fall asleep.”
“What page?”
Busted. “Six,” I said. “But I was really tired.”
“No judgment. I could barely make it through that obscenely pompous introduction.”
“What about the Lukumi situation?” I said, changing the subject. “Any luck?”
Noah’s voice brightened a bit. “I did in fact return to Little Havana while you were at Horizons, and I canvassed the botanicas, just as you asked.”
“Well?”
“Well,” he said slowly. “Imagine for a moment how receptive they were when I walked in there and started asking questions.”
“What? Your Spanish is perfect.”
He arched an eyebrow. “One look at me and their jaws visibly clamped shut. One owner thought I was with the Health Department and started showing me around the place, repeating ‘No goats, no goats.’”
I smirked.
“Glad to amuse you.”
“I get my kicks where I can these days. Speaking of Horizons, I almost had an . . . incident.”
“Of what nature?” Noah asked carefully.
“This girl, Phoebe—she keeps pushing me. I almost lost it with her.” Remembering filled me with frustration. “What if someone pisses me off and I tell them to go jump off a bridge?”
Noah shook his head. “You’d never say that.”
“Oh, really?”
“You’d tell them to go die in a fire.”
“Helpful. Thank you.”
Noah stood then, and joined me on my bed. “I only said it because I’m sure that’s not how it works.”
“How does it work?” I asked out loud, as my fingers curled into the blanket. They were nearly touching his. My eyes traveled up to his face. “How do you heal things?”
I thought I saw a faint tinge of surprise in Noah’s expression at the sudden shift in the conversation but he answered evenly. “You know that everyone has fingerprints, obviously.”
“Obviously.”
“To me, everything has an aural imprint as well. An individual tone. And when someone—or something—is ill or hurt, the tone is off. Broken. I just . . . innately know how to correct it.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Because you’re not musical.”
“Thanks.”
He shrugged. “It’s not an insult. Daniel would get it. If your mother wasn’t in the kitchen, I’d show you.”
“How?”
“You have a piano. Anyway, it’s like . . .” He stared straight ahead, looking for words. “Imagine the melody to a song you know well. And then imagine one note of that song being changed to the wrong key, or to a completely different note.”
“But how do you fix it?”
“If you asked a basketball player how to shoot a perfect free throw, he wouldn’t be able to describe the physiological process that makes it happen. He just . . . does it.”
I inhaled. “But there are so many people.”
“Yes.”
“And animals.”
“Yes.”
“It must get noisy.”
“It does,” Noah said, “I told you before, I learned to tune it out unless I want to focus on one sound in particular.” He smiled. “I prefer,” he said, trailing a finger down my arm, “to listen to you.”
“What do I sound like?” I asked, more breathily than I intended. God, so predictable.
He considered his answer for a moment before he gave it. “Dissonant,” he said finally.
“Meaning?”
Another long pause. “Unstable.”
Hmm.
He shook his head. “Not the way you’re thinking,” he said, the shadow of a smile on his lips. “In music, consonant chords are points of arrival. Rest. There’s no tension,” he tried to explain. “Most pop music hooks are consonant, which is why most people like them. They’re catchy but interchangeable. Boring. Dissonant intervals, however, are full of tension,” he said, holding my gaze. “You can’t predict which way they’re going to go. It makes limited people uncomfortable—frustrated, because they don’t understand the point, and people hate what they don’t understand. But the ones who get it,” he said, lifting a hand to my face, “find it fascinating. Beautiful.” He traced the shape of my mouth with his thumb. “Like you.”
37
HIS WORDS WARMED ME THROUGH EVEN AS HE pulled his hand away. I was sure my face fell.
“Your parents,” he said, with a glance at the door.
I got it. But still. “I like hearing about your ability,” I said, my eyes on his mouth. “Tell me more.”
His voice was level. “What do you want to know?”
“When did you first notice it?”
When his expression shifted, I realized I had asked him that question before; I recognized that shuttered look. He was withdrawing again. Shutting down.
Shutting me out.
Something was going on with him, and I didn’t know what it was. He was growing distant, but he wasn’t gone yet. So I quickly said something else. “You saw me in December, after the asylum collapsed, right?”
“Yes.”
“When I was hurt.”
“Yes,” he said again. To anyone else, he would have sounded bored. But I was learning, and now I recognized something else in his voice. Something that never fell from those reckless, careless, lips.
Caution.
I was pressing up against something raw, and I wanted to know what it was.
“You’ve seen other people who were hurt,” I went on, keeping my tone even. “Four?”
Noah nodded.
Keeping my tone light. “Including Joseph.”
He nodded again.
And then I had an idea. I pinched my arm. I watched Noah to see if there was any reaction. There wasn’t, as far as I could tell.
I pinched it again.
He slitted his eyes. “What, exactly, are you doing?”
“Did you see me when I pinched myself?”
“It’s a bit hard to ignore you.”
“When you first told me you saw me,” I started, “in December, in the asylum—you said you saw what I was seeing, through my eyes. And when Joseph was drugged, you saw him through someone else’s eyes—the person who drugged him, right? But you didn’t have a—a vision just now, did you? So there’s some factor besides pain,” I said, studying his face as I spoke. “Don’t you want to know what it is?”
“Of course,” he said indifferently.
“Have you tested it?”
His eyes sharpened, then. “How could I? You’re the only one I’ve seen that knows.”
I held his stare. “We can test it together.”
Noah shook his head immediately. “No.”
“We have to.”
“No.” The word was solid and final and laced with something I couldn’t quite identify. “We don’t. There’s absolutely nothing at stake except information.”
“But you’re the one who said that whatever is happening to me is also happening to you—that was your argument for why I can’t be possessed, right?”
“Also because it’s stupid.”
I ignored him. “So figuring out how your ability works could help me figure out mine. And no one would get hurt—”
Noah’s expression grew very serious, and his voice grew dangerously quiet. “Except you.”
“It’s science—”
“It’s madness,” he said. He was completely still but completely on edge. “I’ve never regretted telling you the truth. Don’t make me start.”
“Don’t you want to know what we are?”
Something flickered behind his eyes, there and gone before I could identify it. “It doesn’t matter what we are. It matters what we do.” His jaw tightened. “And I won’t let you do that.”
Let? “It’s not just up to you.”
There was nothing but apathy in his voice when he finally spoke. “I’ll leave.”
“I’ve heard that before.” The second the words left my mouth I wished I could take them back. Noah’s expression was as smooth and colorless as glass.
“I’m sorry,” I started to say. But then a few seconds later, when Noah’s expression still hadn’t changed, I said, “Actually, I’m not. You want to go because I don’t agree with you? There’s the door.” I flung my hand dramatically, for emphasis.
But Noah didn’t leave. My outburst thawed whatever had frozen him, and his gaze slid over me. “I wish you had a dog.”
