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Her eyes widened. “What?” She waved a hand in the air. “Everything else can be fixed, but if the magic is gone…” She shook her headsadly.
Jenna remembered Farrell’s eyes when he’d looked at her the night before, the fierceness with which he’d driven into her, the depth of his kiss when it was allover.
“The magic is definitely not gone,” Jennasaid.
“I should think not,” Charlotte said. “Not after that purchase you made in the lingerieshop.”
Jenna’s cheeks grew warm. She wasn’t ready to share the details of her sex life withFarrell.
She would have to take baby steps into this girlfriendthing.
“Isn’t it possible that some of this tension you’re feeling is a result of the secret you’re keeping?” Angelasked.
“It’s possible,” Jennasaid.
“But?” Charlotteprodded.
Jenna sighed. “I don’t know. It feels like there’s more to it than that. It’s like we’re not… connecting the way we usually do. Like we’re on different wavelengths for the first timeever.”
“It happens,” Angelsaid.
“Even to you and Nico?” Jennaasked.
Angel seemed to think about it. “Every now andthen.”
The answer seemed designed more to please Jenna than because it was true. She wasn’t naive enough to think that Nico and Angel’s marriage was trouble-free — no marriage was — but she doubted they’d ever had a seriousmiscommunication.
“This seems like an easy problem to fix,” Isabel said. “Talk tohim.”
It sounded so simple. Was simple for so manypeople.
She and Farrell might prefer communicating sexually over using words, but it wasn’t as if they’d never talked their way through a difficulttime.
They’d reconciled after he found out she’d kept Lily a secret from him, had been outlaws throughout Europe, separated from theirdaughter.
They’d talked. Maybe not as much as most people, but they’dtalked.
So why was she having such a hard time coming clean about herpregnancy?
She’d barely formulated the question in her own mind when she found the answer: she was afraid of hisreaction.
Anyreaction.
If he was happy about the baby, she would wonder if he was really happy or if he was pretending for herbenefit.
And if he wasn’t… well, that was a possibility she didn’t want to seriouslyconsider.
“I know you’re right,” Jenna said. “I’m making it more complicated than itis.”
Isabel reached for her hand. “I’m not saying it’s easy. But you have to tell him sometime, and it seems like the secret is more harmful than anything that will come out of tellinghim.”
Angel smiled. “He’s going to be happy, Jenna. Beyond happy. I knowit.”
“I’m not an expert on the pregnancy front,” Charlotte said, “but I have to agree with Angel. If the way he looks at you and Lily is any indication, he’s going to be over the moon. Then all of this will seem like a sillymisunderstanding.”
Jenna nodded. “I’m sure you’reright.”
“It’s Christmas,” Angel said. “The most romantic time ofyear.”
“And New Year’s is right around the corner,” Charlotte said. “It’s a good time to take a leap of faith. I think Farrell will be there to catchyou.”
Jenna took a drink of her tea and thought about Charlotte’s words. She didn’t doubt they weretrue.
Farrell had always been there to catchher.
That was part of the problem; he was so determined to keep her safe and happy, to make sure her every wish was fulfilled, that it had gotten harder for Jenna to determine if he did the things he did — if he said the things he said — because he meant them or because he knew it was what shewanted.
How could she know forsure?
