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Sutton~
One Uber ride, some more sleep, a proper shower, and some toast later, I was sitting on the couch-not sure if I was happy or mortified-with Delta sitting across from me, grilling me. After all, it was kind of hard to hide all the damn hickeys Ross had planted all over my body.
“So…so, is this a good thing?” Delta asked hesitantly.
“Honestly, I don’t know,” I answered honestly. “He’s saying and doing all the right things, but…I’m still…”
“Hurt?” she prodded gently.
I nodded. “Yeah, I think so,” I muttered sheepishly. “Is it…petty of me that I resent that he hasn’t paid for what he did to me? Is it wrong that I’m…upset that he ghosted me, then went about his life just fine, only to let him back in?”
Delta shook her head. “No,” she grumbled. “I think that’s natural. No one wants to hurt alone.”
“I’m confused,” I admitted. “I mean, I take full responsibility for caving, but my emotions are still a jumbled mess.”
“Falling in love sucks.”
I let out a sad chuckled. “It sure does.”
“Do you think he’s going to be mad that you came home when he told you not to?”
I shrugged. “Honestly, I don’t know,” I told her. “I also don’t care. I needed a proper shower after everything I let him do to me last night.”
Delta wiggled her eyebrows. “I bet.”
“What about you?” I asked. “How are things going with Malcolm?”
She grimaced a bit. “Nothing’s changed, and I don’t know if that’s good or bad.”
“How so?
“I’ve been backing off a bit, and instead of questioning my absence, Malcolm just accepts my excuses, then goes about his business.”
I adjusted myself a bit because I was so damn sore before saying, “I still think you should just have candid talk with him, Delta. Let him know that it’s more for you. It’s better than living in limbo.”
She let out a sigh. “I know. I do. It’s just…avoidance seems less traumatic.”
“Well, it’s better than no answer at all,” I huffed. “I can’t get any real answers out of Ross, other than I’m his and he’s mine, and that’s all I need to know.”
“Do you believe him about not being with other girls?”
“I do,” I answered. “I mean, there’s no reason to lie about it. We’d already had sex in his car, so it wasn’t like he had to lie about it to get me in bed. There was no value in it for him to lie.”
Delta reached over and nudged my leg. “Then maybe hewasheartbroken, Sutton,” she offered. “He said he ghosted you because he had some shit that he needed to take care of before getting too serious with you. So, how do we know that he wasn’t hurting, too?”
“Probably because I can’t imagine someone like Ross Carmichael being heartbroken,” I semi-joked. “He’s just so…commanding, you know. I can’t…I just can’t see him sad and crying in his room over a breakup.”
Delta grinned. “Okay, I’ll give you the sad and crying, but that doesn’t mean he’s not capable of experiencing a broken heart. The dude seems too focused for a meltdown, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t suffer during your time apart, too.”
“Maybe-”
A knock on our door stopped my sentence, and I shot Delta a pleading look. I was too sore to get up and do anything, much less answer the door.
Delta just laughed as she got up to go answer the door. I laid my head on the backrest of the couch, and I swear to God, I could have fallen asleep again.
“Oh, what are you doing here?”
Malcolm’s voice was clear as day when he asked, “Good to see you, too.”
