Page 168 of The Hookup Experiment

"Cute?"

"Sexy." He brings his drink to his lips. "Are you watching?"

"Sorta."

"You want to keep watching?"

"We can't see much from here."

He smiles. "We can move closer."

"No. This is good. This is perfect. That's what I was thinking, how odd it is I'm in the perfect place at a party that's explicitly not an orgy."

He laughs. "We can leave at any point."

"Do you want to?"

"No."

"Me neither." I take a sip. Watch the couple writhe against the wall.

Again, Patrick laughs. "If you want to watch, watch."

"Sorry. I said… I'm ignoring you."

"You're doing what I invited you here to do."

"I'm just… I've never watched anyone have sex." This is a good way to start, actually. I can only see the R-rated version of things. It's not as overwhelming as the X-rated version.

"At a party?"

"No. Well, I don't think so. Make outs, sure. Under the clothes touching, even. But never sex."

"Did you ever?" he asks.

"Huh?"

"Touch under the clothes at a party?"

"Yes," I say.

"Do you think about it when you fuck yourself?"

"Sometimes."

"Anything else like that?" he asks.

"At a pool once. Everyone had cleared out of a party. It was me and a guy I knew from swim team and we started kissing and he took off my bikini top and it was thrilling, knowing I was at someone else's house half-naked."

"You want to wear the swimsuit?"

"I am." My cheeks flush. "Under this."

"Oh yeah?"

"It felt right."

"Show me."

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