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I let out a snort, he makes it sound so dirty. “We just realized we were better off as friends; our relationship wasn’t normal. We had other people in our bed, we’d go to swing parties, sex clubs, stuff like that. He revealed to me recently, though, that he’s bisexual but leans more towards men. So, that’s good for him, finally living his truth.”
Carson’s body tenses up. “You were in an open relationship?” he asks, sounding shocked.
“Yeah, it’s no big deal, it’s what we established about two years into our relationship, and it worked for us. But that’s the thing, we talked about it. Now if he had gone out and slept with someone and I didn’t know or wasn’t okay with it, it would have been a big, fucking deal. I don’t do cheaters,” I tell him harshly.
He gives me a squeeze on my hip. “You ready to tell me about your past?”
I sigh and roll over to my back. “It’s not pretty, but I’ll tell you. My earliest memory is my mother picking me up by the hair and throwing me down the stairs.” His body tenses. “I was only four.” Fuck, this shit is hard. “I won’t tell you more, but it was like that until the day I was seventeen and could start fighting her back. Our relationship changed then, she might not have been able to physically hurt me anymore, but she did everything she could to get in my head. Hell, for some reason when I became an adult, she randomly thought of herself as my best friend. Trying to go on dates with Tomas and I, or if we didn’t include her, she’d go off on a tangent. Hell, she would even punish me by not talking to me for a week over not watching a movie with her.” Carson starts rubbing circles on my hip as he gets up on an elbow and looks down at me. His face is hard, angry. “Then it came out that she had been cheating on dad, and that was it, this move couldn’t have happened at a better time, honestly. We all cut her off, and that was that. Although it doesn’t stop her from trying to get in touch sometimes. But I never take her calls or reply to her emails.”
“Fuck, I knew you went through some shit, with what I was finding myself, but hearing it come out of your mouth just makes it that much worse. I’m sorry you went through it at all. A mother should love her child, not raise a hand or abuse them mentally.”
“It was what it was, can’t change the past, only can move forward.”
“You’re right, and you’ll be a better mother than she ever was.”
I shake my head, “No, being a mother isn’t one of my dreams. I never saw myself having children. if I’m honest, I’d rather just be the fun auntie or something.”
Carson growls, “You’ll be stepmom to my kids, and we are definitely having more.”
I laugh at that, “There is no way, at your age, you want more kids.”
“Why not? Kids aren’t a burden, they are a treasure, and I’ve always wanted a shit-ton of them.”
“We’ve only been dating about a month, slow your roll. If we last longer, we’ll talk more about it. But right now, the answer is no. I’m cool with the stepmom thing, even though you’re totally getting ahead of yourself.”
“Whenwe last, you mean. Notif. There is no ending for us. This is it. You’re my one.” Before I can retort his mouth slams down on mine and I’m lost.
Totally falling for him, falling so fast I’m dizzy.
Chapter Twenty-five
Hangman
I’m introducing mykids to Justine tonight, and I’m nervous, I want them all to like each other, but if April—Emily’s mom—has a say in this, she’ll hate Justine. April always thought with Vicky out of my life, she’d have a shot with me, but I put her in her place. Of course, she didn’t take it well and instead of outright starting shit with me, she sneakily does it through our child.
And after tonight, I’m putting a stop to that shit or April can kiss our daughter goodbye for good. I park in April’s driveway and get out of the truck. I rarely drive the thing, but, with Emily, it’s better, safer. “Hangman.” April breathes as she opens the door and sees me.
