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“Humor me,” I say, rolling my eyes quickly.
“Yeah, of course, I trust them with my life. They’d do everything in their power to protect me. I might not be a Satan’s Raider, but as a regent for the Reapers Rejects, we all protect each other.”
I nod. I already knew he’d say that. “What about me? Would you trust them with my life?”
“Yes, of course.”
I nod again, moving right on to the next question, “How about me? Do you think I’m smart enough to make good decisions? You trust me to know what’s good for my life?” This one I’m not so sure of the answer.
“Well, I mean, yeah, you’ve grown up all right. I know you can take care of yourself and will come get me if anything is too hard for you to handle.”
That’s what’s about to change. It’s no longer him that I’m going to go to, but Armor.
“Good, that’s what I thought. I’ve made a decision, and I know you’re not going to like it. But just know the only reason I know this will be okay is that I know that you and the rest of the men in this club will do everything to keep me safe. I know that through you, I’ve become family. I know that there are no other people on this planet who will treasure me and treat me better than you guys.”
He shoves his hands in his back pockets and tilts his head to the side, not understanding what it is I’m talking about.
I take a deep breath and make sure I keep his gaze. If he thinks I’m unsure about this at all, I know it’s going to be that much harder to convince him.
“Hammer, Armor and I are together, and I’m going to stay in Los Angeles indefinitely.” The words seem to echo in the air, and my brother stares at me with wide eyes.
“What the fuck did you just say to me?”
“I’m sorry, it’s not something I meant to happen, but it did. We care for each other a lot. The man would rather walk on hot coals barefoot than go against your word, but we can’t help how we feel about each other. I love him, and I’m going to stay here to be with him.”
“The fuck you are. You’re going back home,” Hammer says and tries to walk around me to the clubhouse doors.
“Hammer!” I grab hold of his arm, stopping him from moving. “You just told me that you trusted this club with your life and mine, so why is it when one of them is offering to protect my heart as well, you have a problem with it? You know Armor. You know what kind of man he is. I wouldn’t be here telling you this if the man treated me any less than a queen. “
“For fuck’s sake. It’s not about Armor. I know he’s a good man, and he’s going to do right by you. He knows I’ll knock his fuckin’ teeth down his throat if he doesn’t. That’s not the problem.”
I throw my hands in the air, exasperated. “What the hell is the problem then?”
“This life! This life and having you in it is the problem!” he yells.
He lets his hands fall down to his side and takes a deep breath before he continues, “Jada, you don’t deserve to be in this life. “
Ah, that’s what this is about. “Oh, come on, it’s not that bad.”
“Don’t be stupid. You’re talking to someone who’s been living it for years. I know exactly how bad this is. You need to go back home where this shit can’t touch you.”
“I already told you I made my decision, Hammer. I appreciate the brotherly concern, but with your approval or not, I’m staying.” I put my hands on my hips, standing my ground.
“How can you want to be around this? Were you not there when your niece was gunned down like livestock? Did you not see those bastards who tried to roll in here and kill us while we were supposed to be having a good time? Don’t you realize the dangers that go along with being attached to a high-ranking member of this motorcycle club? The minute you become Armor’s ol’ lady, you’re going to have a target on your back. You think I want that for you?”
“No, I know you don’t, but I think you do want me to be happy and be with someone who cares for me enough to keep me that way.”
I reach over and put a hand on his arm. No one could ever tell me that my brother doesn’t care for me. I know he’s been traumatized by everything that’s been going on with his daughter, but I can’t let that event stop my life.
He snatches his arm away from me and puts both his hands up.
“Fine, it seems like no matter what I say, you’re going to go about doing this your own way. I don’t even know why you came to me with this shit in the first place. Do what the hell you want. I’m out of here.” He turns and storms off to his truck.
He puts it into reverse and drives out like he’s running from the cops. I feel bad that I’ve hurt his feelings, but I’m happy that it’s finally out in the open. I am slightly worried that he may try to distance himself from me. That’s just my brother’s way. He can hold a grudge like no other. I make a note to talk to Shiloh about it when I have a free moment, but right now, I just want to bask in the feeling of being free. Free to love who I want, kiss who I want, and not have to hide in the closet to do it.
I turn to walk back into the clubhouse and find Armor. He’s the next person I have to tell my plans to, especially since they majorly involve him.
He might have had an idea that I was getting ready to spill the beans to my brother, but I don’t think he knew that I was going to be moving here as well.
