I had never been so angry.
Nothing against Chloe Daniels. She was a very nice girl. Turned out that I just wanted him all to myself.
But I think there comes a point when you've been friends for just way too long and it's just never going to evolve into anything more.
Zephyr and I have gone through high school together and nothing remotely romantic has happened between us.
I wanted it to.
We went to prom together. I prayed to every God in every sky that he would kiss me.
But he didn't.
We slow-danced together on the dance floor.
But even that felt sort of sibling-esque.
I am just going to have to be okay with the fact that I will always be in Zepyhr’s life even if it's just as his very best friend.
I think that could be enough.
Better than the alternative, right? Better than not having him at all?
And, I know.
I know that he will meet some perfect girl one day.
And it will kill me.
And I will have to smile and go to parties with them and pretend I’m totally cool while small daggers of pain plunge into my heart every time I see him touch the small of her back.
Maybe I won’t be able to stand it.
Maybe I’ll need to walk away.
But I try not to think about that.
For now, he’s mine.
Sort of.
All of these thoughts tumble around in my brain when I hear the familiar rapping of a fist against my window.
I look outside my second-story bedroom of my childhood home that I’m so close to leaving to find Zephyr in a tree.
This happens a lot.
My parents are pretty strict and they have never really understood the guy-best-friend thing, so he’s not exactly allowed up here.
Zephyr and I have found our way around that.
I lift my window.
“Shouldn’t you be finishing packing?” I ask.
Zephyr helps himself into my room, careful not to step on the creaky parts of my floor.
“We need to change schools,” he tells me, before settling onto my bed.