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Their date had been so much fun, and Amira couldn’t remember the last time that she’d laughed so much. She couldn’t remember the last time that she’d felt so carefree either. She finally got to let loose and just focus on having fun, not having to worry about being so serious for once. With Casey, she didn’t have to worry about whether or not she looked stupid either. Casey wasn’t afraid of looking dumb as long as she was having fun, and Amira really admired that. Casey really brought her to life.
Even after spending the past couple of days thinking about their date, it was even more at the forefront of her mind here in a meeting with Casey. Dr. Rosen, even.
Stay professional, Amira.
No matter how many times the same jokes, the same conversations, the same memories from the night ran through her head, she didn’t get tired of them. She laughed every time she thought of their jokes. She blushed every time she thought of the sly remarks and flirtatious winks that Casey had sent her way. She smiled every time she thought of their kiss…
And no matter how hard she tried not to think about it, her mind just kept going right back to it. She couldn’t get it out of her head.
It had been so romantic. The two of them on the Ferris wheel, the beautiful, bright lights from all the rides making for a gorgeous scene. The wind blowing their hair gently, the sound of kids screaming and laughing as they ran around below them, the smell of the delicious fair food drifting through the air. There were a million different things going on at once, yet the two of them had only been focused on each other. All the rest was a blur to Amira, but what she remembered very clearly was the feeling of Casey’s lips finally coming into contact with her own.
She remembered how the kiss had started off soft and slow, both of them just testing the waters. And she remembered how the two of them had easily melted into the kiss in no time, tongues tangling together, lips parting and heads turning to deepen the kiss. It felt normal. Like they’d done it a million times before. It felt right.
Amira had felt as if her body was on fire as they’d shared their first kiss. It had felt as if a thousand bolts of electricity were running through her at once.
She’d almost felt as if she was suffocating. Casey had caged her in and the woman had been the only thing that Amira could focus on. She’d taken over each and every one of Amira’s senses. Amira could only think of her while they engaged in their kiss. Casey’s hands on her. Casey’s mouth on hers. Casey’s perfume became more noticeable than any of the other smells around. Casey, Casey, Casey. All Amira had been able to think about was Casey. And she’d loved that.
It was so easy to feel happy and light when Casey was the only thing running through her mind. It was as if she was incapable of thinking about anything aside from the younger woman and that had been such an amazing feeling. Amira hadn’t been able to stop thinking about it yet.
She knew she needed to. After all, they’d both agreed that they’d only be acting as friends and colleagues from now on, so it would probably be for the best if Amira could stop thinking about their kiss every two seconds…
But it was easier said than done.
Amira was really starting to want to kick her own ass for turning Casey down. They’d just been about to end the night on a high note. A very,veryhigh note.
Amira was convinced that she could’ve come from that damn kiss alone. She could only imagine how amazing it would’ve been if she and Casey had actually had sex.
Amira wondered if she was just torturing herself. She couldn’t evenattemptto pretend that she didn’t want Casey. She did want Casey. Very badly. So, why was she denying herself the pleasure that would come with being with her?
Was this because of the divorce? Was she still hung up on that? Maybe she was just scared to move on from her ex-wife, and maybe that’s why she’d turned Casey down…
No, that wasn’t it. Amira was more than ready to move on.
Or was she?
The whole reason their marriage had failed was because their spark had gone out. The love and passion that they’d once had had faded away. They began boring each other half to death. They never tried anything new.
When they had sex, it was vanilla, and more like a chore than anything else. But that had been back when they stilldidhave sex. They’d completely stopped nearly four years before their marriage ended.
Amira had often wished that they could try other things sexually, although she had never actually voiced her thoughts.
Rachel had always wanted to stick to what she knew. She wasn’t a fan of trying new things, and Amira had respected that, but she’d never stopped wanting to step outside the box for a bit.
Now, she was finally getting what she’d been wanting. A chance to try something new. And she was turning it down, why?
She didn’t know anything about BDSM. She was intrigued, but wary. She had done her own research on the internet yesterday and she moved between being endlessly turned on at the thought of trying something like this with Casey and admonishing herself for being ridiculous. This wasn’t the kind of thing self respecting doctors engaged in. Was it?
Amira wasn’t even sure she was even the slightest bit submissive. She was a confident, independent woman. She was a doctor for christ’s sake, head of her department, no less. Her whole life and career had been forged through not being submissive.
Amira watched as Casey moved to type up some notes. Her fingers flying across the keyboard looked so sexy.
Oh god, I’m so intrigued by her.
Should she talk to Casey about it? Should she try it? Try a sex only casual fling? It’s not that she had a problem with having sex with Casey—obviously, shewantedto do that—but wouldn’t that be stupid? They’d agreed to be friends and colleagues. Friends and colleaguesonly. They shouldn’t complicate things even more by having sex when they’d already decided that they weren’t going to date because they weren’t a match for each other…
And Amira hadneverconsidered herself a casual sex kind of girl.
But hadn’t they only decided that they weren’t a match because Amira hadn’t been sure that she’d be interested in the BDSM lifestyle? That was really the only thing standing in their way, but if she could get out of her own way on that front, there was no real reason they couldn’t try something?
