Page 37 of Always Him

He has to feel it too, right? He has to. This can’t just be me.

Slowly Landon drifts off to sleep. I can tell by how his chest rises and falls beneath the blanket.

Holding my breath, I allow my finger to skirt over the bridge of his nose, mapping out the freckles there, and then it moves down to his lips.

I don’t touch them, though. No, I just hover above them, staring, letting myself imagine what they’d feel like.

I’m not sure what I’d do if I ever kissed him.

Combust and fall apart probably.

Not that he’d ever want me like that. That’s not something I should even think about. It willneverhappen.

I lean back against the headboard and let my headthunkagainst the wall. My eyes close, my fingers still in his hair as I try to divert my thoughts.

But they’re stuck on him.

They’re always on him.

I can’t escape him. He’s ensnared me.

The door opens a while later and Logan pokes his head in.

“Hey man,” he whispers, his eyes swiveling down to his brother still curled up in my lap asleep.

I lift my chin in acknowledgment as Logan moves into the bed next to me.

“He was hoping you’d come by,” Logan says, handing me a candy bar and a bottle of water.

I take it from him and set it aside, running my hands down Landon’s back. He lets out a sigh and my heart just melts.

Logan nudges me with his shoulder. “Want me to grab my laptop and we can watch a movie while he sleeps? Doesn’t seem like you’re going anywhere,” he whispers.

I glance at Landon and nod.

“Yeah, that sounds good, man,” I say and Logan disappears, leaving me to trace Landon’s face with my eyes.

Taking him in. Drinking him up.

This feeling isn’t going away. I’m going to have to live with this forever.

I’m doomed.

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LANDON

We makeit home from my parents’ a little after midnight, Finn carrying me up the stairs to my apartment, stripping me down and tucking me into bed.

I am pooped. After dinner, we went on a walk to “see the stars”. There were no motherfucking stars. Just clouds and the whiff of pollution. But we did it because my dad had shown up with Curie in her Petpod and Vincent on his leash looking way too excited.

Like we could say no to him.

So, we bundled up and took a walk around the block before coming back and stuffing ourselves with cake. We sat out by the fire and chatted until I fell asleep against Finn.

Now he’s crawling up behind me and pulling me against his warm body. His leg is thrown over mine, my ass nestled against his groin, and his face is pressed into my neck.

I feel his lips against my skin, the huff of his warm breath, and my entire body relaxes into him.

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