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My core tightens at the image he’s planted in my head. I swallow because my heart is taking it as a fake sign to get back to life.
My body is definitely joining in because I’ve missed him. I’ve missed being fucked by him and sleeping in his arms.
But my brain is smarter, because it’s in control and it won’t compromise anymore.
“Then what am I, Nate?”
“The most infuriating person on earth, that’s what you are.”
“Infuriating because I won’t let you touch me?”
“Because you want fucking feelings. Why would you? From me? You know how broken I am. I’m empty, too. Like you said, I don’t like people to get close, because they leave. They fucking leave, Gwyneth. That’s why I don’t do feelings. So you’re not supposed to want them from me.”
“Don’t you understand? It’s because it’s you that I want them, idiot. We’re the same, you and I. That’s why we care about each other’s opinions. That’s why we sleep in each other’s company despite the insomnia. It’s because that emptiness isn’t allowed to make noise anymore, and it’s peaceful and right. Have you been sleeping lately? I haven’t. The emptiness has been so loud and harsh and I’ve missed you, but I’ve hated myself for it because you don’t miss me, too.”
“I do.” His voice is low, barely audible.
“What did you just say—”
Any other words disappear when he grabs me by the face, his strong hands cupping my cheeks as he slams his lips to mine.
A kiss.
He’s kissing me.
I’m so stunned that I can’t think straight. I can’t think about anything except that his lips are on mine. They’re firm and demanding and I open with a moan because he’s feasting on me, his tongue claiming mine while one hand is at my throat and the other is fisting in my hair, pulling it back so he can deepen the kiss. So he can reach places in my soul that I didn’t think existed before.
This is what it feels like to be kissed by Nate. He’s the one who erupts the volcano but doesn’t allow it to turn to ashes.
He’s the one who revives my vanilla heart and lets it breathe properly.
Freely.
With no restraints.
He bites down on my lower lip, and I whimper as he plunges his tongue inside again and pulls my body so it’s flattened against his front.
And I think I can die at this moment.
With him kissing me, claiming me, touching me in the way I always wished he would.
Like he cares.
Like he doesn’t want this to end either.
There are groans and moans and I don’t know whose they are, but I don’t care, because I’m too far gone to come back to the world of the living.
My hands are all over him, too, bunching in his shirt and hair. I kiss him as hard as he kisses me, not like the pure, innocent girl I was two years ago.
That girl with the measly crush is gone. She’s a woman now who’s not afraid to go after what she wants.
And now, I want this man with everything I have.
I show him that, kissing him back with the same fire he uses to claim me.
And then Nate’s suddenly pushed off me and I shriek as Dad punches him, sending him flying into the pool.
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