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“W-what?”
“I’m in remission, but the doctors say I could relapse at any time and I might have to start counting my days.”
The room sways but I realize it’s me as I grab onto the nearest chair and use it as support. The information he just revealed pricks my skin over and over.
Papa has cancer—or used to.
“Oh, God, is this why you wanted to marry me off that time, but Rai volunteered to do it? You wanted to pick a newPakhan, too.”
“Yes. Only Rai and Vladimir know about my illness and we’ve kept it a secret from everyone else on purpose. I wanted to choose someone suitable for you before my time is up.”
I don’t think about it as I approach him until I’m so close, I can see how pale his skin is. Now that I think about it, right before I left, there were times when he pulled away from me and even refused to see me. And that pained me more than I admitted. It hurt to be just a wallflower in his house.
“Why didn’t you tell me, Papa?”
“Because I don’t want to hurt you.”
“But I’m your daughter. I’m supposed to take care of you.”
“You’ve always seen me as strong and powerful. That day I shot that lowlife, you looked at me as if I were a god, and I selfishly needed you to continue looking at me as such. I don’t want you to witness me weak and coughing up blood.”
“I don’t care…I just want to be there for you like you were there for me when I was young.”
He offers me his hand and I take it, sniffling back the tears. “Nastyusha…listen to me. You have to marry within the brotherhood to remain protected.”
“No, Papa, I can’t. I just can’t marry Kirill or anyone else when I’m in love with Knox. It’ll kill me slowly.”
“Nastyusha…”
“Please give him a chance, Papa.Please. You’d be surprised to see the lengths he’d go to protect me and be there for me.”
“What if he doesn’t succeed?”
“He will.” I have no doubt.
Because I realized something today.
Knox and I might belong to different worlds, but we belong together, and once we both put our minds to it, nothing can stop us.
40
KNOX
Imeant what I told Anastasia. If she doesn’t call me today, I’m going back there, to the men she fears and doesn’t want to defy.
Her father will either have to give her back to me or he might as well shoot me. That’s the only way I would ever give up on her.
Fucking death.
I try to work normally, to pretend I’m a functioning human being, even though every neuron is urging me to go and find her.
Ten more hours, I tell myself.
Just ten more hours and I’ll go find her.
My desk has been crowded with cases since the Bell trials made me famous—more than before—so I have even more people wanting me to represent them. I’ll have to go through the details and choose which ones I’ll take on.
I know for sure they’re going to be cases for people like me—abused, broken, and with shadows crowding their lives twenty-four-seven. I always thought such cases weren’t good for me; they’d trigger me, which is why I turned them down.
