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Aching.
Fear.
Want.
And my head?
It’s in a razor-sharp place,
Filled with the biting of hands,
That have no right to be there,
No right to touch,
And yet, they do.
“I have to go,” I sputter, stumbling back from her. “I’ll be right back.”
I rush out of the room, my brain screaming at me to shut it off.
“Jax,” Zay calls out after me.
But I only quicken the pace, rushing up the stairs and into my room. The moment I get there, I head straight to my dresser.
Straight to where the silence is waiting for me.
FOUR
HUNTER
I’m unsure why I’m freaking out so badly over a girl I barely know. I don’t even freak out when it comes to girls. Well, unless one of them is chasing me down, like Katie did in the parking lot the other day. And yet, here I am, sitting on the edge of my bed with a line laid out on my nightstand that whispers silent promises of peaceful bliss to me, of numbness, of turning this fucking feeling off inside me, the one that makes me feel like I’m about to crawl out of my skin.
Just do it.
No, don’t.
Yes.
No.
Yes. Yes. Yes.
“God, make it stop,” I mutter as my head throbs.
It’s been a while since I’ve done a line. I was trying not to do it, to clear my head and stop letting drugs help me cope with things I don’t want to feel. I shouldn’t do it. I know I shouldn’t.
Get up and walk away.
I rise to my feet to do just that when I hear her voice on the other side of the door.
“Jaxon, are you okay?” she says. I’m guessing he’s in his room.
Something about hearing his name on her lips causes me to crumble.
I want her.
Badly.
