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“Yeah,” I answer, calling back to Hannah as she settles on the steps. “I had to start early… One less pair of hands today.”
I don’t even look at Hannah when the words leave my lips, but I know she’s looking at me. Tension is building in my chest again and I can sense her watching me. I just hope I’m disguising the pain enough as I stomp over the garden and meet her at the steps leading up to the cabin.
Oh God, I can’t do this.
“Did you sleep well?” I ask, settling down on the step below her.
She smiles and nods. “Yes. Thank you.”
A smile catches my attention, but I force myself to look away. I have to tell her everything, and I’d rather not have the memory of her sweet, pure, heavenly aura when she slaps my face because of what I’ve done to her.
The words repeat over and over again in my head.I love you. I love you. I love you.
“Listen,” I begin, holding the air in my chest. “Baby, there’s something I need to tell you.”
Fuck.
Hope flashes in her eyes. I’m not sure what she expects, but the way she’s leaning forward, reaching out for my hands has me dreading this even more. She doesn’t suspect I’m about to tell her how I’ve betrayed her trust. How I’ve held her here against her will. How I’ve gone against everything she’s wanted just for my own selfish needs.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
“What is it, baby?”
Hannah’s hands wrap around mine. They’re so small and soft. So perfect.
I glance up at her and take a long, deep breath. Just as I open my mouth, I see the rosy, red color of her lips, catching the rays of the sun as they glisten so magically.
I can’t help but lean in for one final kiss.
I cup the side of her face, groaning into her mouth. My mouth draws up to her and the moment our lips meet, I’m questioning everything. Something explodes inside, a sudden explosion detonating in my chest.
She’s so beautiful. So warm. So soft and tender.
Do I really have to tell her? What if I just grab her and drag her up the mountain? No one will ever find us up there… will they?
She likes it up there, I know she does. I could see it in her eyes.
I groan, kissing her harder. I picture our life in the wilderness, all alone, my heart pounding at the thought. I grip the back of her head, my fingers plunging through her silky hair. My tongue strokes over hers and I never want it to stop.
“Colt…” Hannah breaks the kiss.
I snatch back, rising to my feet. My breath quickens, my cheeks suddenly scorching hot as I pace back and forth. Hannah is watching me, her eyes darting across at me, her brow crinkled at my sudden urgency.
“Colt…” Her voice is tight. “What’s going on?”
Fuck, I love her so much. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I drop to my knees, grab her hands and hold them as close to my heart as I possibly can. I stare deep into Hannah’s glowing green eyes, holding her gaze as best as I can through the moisture pooling in my own.
“Okay, this is it. This is it.”
“What is it?” Hannah’s expression scrunches. “Colt, you’re freaking me out. What’s going on?”
I suck in one final breath.
Then, I let go.
“Hannah, I love you so fucking much. I’m sorry I didn’t say it back last night. The truth is…” I pause, because fuck, there’s so much truth she deserves to know. “The truth is, I’m not worthy of your love. I don’t deserve it.”
