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I brought my finger up and placed it on his lips. “Let me finish.”
“In my heart right now, I believe you’re an amazing man. You’re full of love and wisdom. You’re sexy and handsome. When you love, you love hard. You’re funny and witty, and everyone loves you. All of this is new to me because I remember that I lived my life alone, and that’s how I chose to live. I wake up in the hospital, and suddenly, I have this amazing man I’m engaged to, a wonderful family, and everyone telling me how happy I was and how perfect my life was. The part I struggle with is having no memory of that at all. I’ve seen the pictures and the videos, and clearly I can see that I lived this amazing life. Remember that journal I told you about?”
“Yeah.”
I reached over and picked it up. “This is it.” I handed it to him. “I told you all that was in there were notes. There aren’t any notes in there. But there is a letter I wrote to myself about eight months or so ago.”
“Do you want me to read it?” he asked.
“Yeah. I do.”
He opened the journal, and tears filled his eyes as he read what I had written down.
“Why would you write this?” he asked.
“I don’t know if I ever told you this, but I was treating a girl who was seventeen years old for anorexia and bulimia.”
“Wait a second. Isn’t she the gymnast who fell off the balance beam, hit her head, and lost all of her memories?”
“Yeah. She’s the one. I guess that happening to her rattled me and made me see that our identity could be wiped away at any time. The crazy thing is that I wrote that, and this happened to me and to us. I’m guessing the last thing I ever wanted to forget was you.” I brought my hand up and wiped the tears from his eyes. “I had another memory today during a therapy session with a patient. We were sitting on the couch, and I was telling you how safe you make me feel and that I would always love you for that. Then, I received a call from Joseph.”
“Who’s Joseph?” His brows furrowed.
“He’s a salesman at Cartier, where I purchased your wedding band. He called to let me know it was in, and I could pick it up. That’s where I went after I left the medical center. I told him about the accident, and he let me watch the security footage of the day I was there picking out your ring.”
“You never told me you bought it,” he said.
“I was in there a couple of days before the accident. Anyway, I’m trying to say that I don’t want to cancel or postpone the wedding. If we were happy and in love before the accident, I know we were meant to be together in my heart. I could spend the rest of my life searching for my past, and I really don’t have the energy to do that. Besides, the chances of getting my memories back are slim. So, I want to take it one day at a time. I also want you and the family to continue helping me piece the last few years of my life back together.”
He brought his hands up and held my face in his hands.
“You have no idea how happy you’ve made me.” He brushed his lips against mine. “Nothing in this world could ever keep us apart, babe. I love you so much.” He hugged me as my legs wrapped tightly around his waist.
“Conner, I—”
He broke our embrace and stared into my eyes. “You don’t have to say it back because I know you will when you’re ready. Even though you were telling me how much you loved me our first week at the medical center together.” A smirk crossed his lips.
“I can guarantee you that I wasn’t saying that. From what you told me and that video I saw, I was likely telling you how much I hated you.” The corners of my mouth curved upward.
“Yeah.” He sighed. “Those were some good times, babe.”
“Shut up.” I laughed.
“Can I tell you something?” he asked.
“Of course.”
“I’m quite offended how you called me a dumbass in your journal.”
“Obviously, I was a little upset that you hadn’t proposed to me yet.”
“Seriously, Charlotte. I am so happy you wrote that down. You’re very smart.” He grinned.
“Yeah. I’m starting to see that.” The corners of my mouth curved upward. “You’re going to have to fill me in on what we’ve done for the wedding and what still needs to be done. Did we even order the invitations?”
“Uh, yeah. They’ve been sent out already.”
“Oh, okay. So, we did that before the accident.”
