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I don’t know how he’ll feel.
And before I tell him, I need to clarify his feelings for me. I think he loves me, but he hasn’t said the words; yet, neither have I, even though I’ve wanted to. I’ve been bursting at the seams to say it, but it never feels like the right time.
Is there even a right time?
I’m starting to think there isn’t. You just sort of blurt it out and either have it reciprocated or get rejected.
I don’t believe rejection will be his reaction, however.
“I knew it!” Summer screeches over my shoulder, startling me.
“Shut up,” I hiss back at her.
“You’re going to be an amazing mom.” Her arms wrap around my waist, rubbing the little bump as she lays her chin on my shoulder. “Have you told Cas yet?” I shake my head. “He’s going to die and think he’s gone to heaven.”
I turn to face my sister. “I don’t want him to stay because of this, though.” The fear is very real for me.
“He put his cousin in jail for you, Bun. I don’t think a baby will scare him off.” She laughs until she realizes I’m not joining in with her.
Yes, Caspian made sure the justice system threw the book at Chester for all he’s done to me, and when other girls started to come forward, they had no choice. The school was forced to release the complaints against him, and I think there are pending charges against some of the teachers.
“He hasn’t told me he loves me yet.” I don’t know why that’s so important. He shows me in a hundred little ways all the time.
“I wish like hell you understood just how special you are. How easy to love you are. And I really wish you knew what we all do, and that’s that he loves you so fiercely it consumes him.” She’s right, of course. I know she is. Caspian always does things for me, including showing up at school to ensure I eat lunch every day because I still forget. “Hell, I bet he already knows.”
I frown at her. “How would he know that?”
Her eyes roll as she explains, “He is so in tune to your emotions and body that I’m sure he didn’t miss the fact you haven’t had your period in the two months you’ve known him, and I bet he sees the way your breasts are filling out and the slight flare in those slim hips of yours. If he doesn’t know for sure, then he definitely suspects.”
Thinking over the past month, I realize she’s right. He’s always on me to rest and eat. His hands are constantly on my body, and there’s no way he’s missed my morning, midday, and evening sickness. Because it hits me at all times of the day.
“How do I tell him?” I want it to be special.
“Well, I’d say it’s about time the two of you spend a little more time at his house because once he knows for certain, he won’t be able to control that leashed lust he’s constantly carrying around.” I giggle at her word choice. It seems silly, but she’s not wrong.
“Will you help me?” In a burst of energy, Summer begins running around my room, throwing everything I own into suitcases that appear out of nowhere. “Were you prepared for this?”
Her eyes roll at my question. “Bunny, I have been waiting for this day for three weeks now. The fact he hasn’t yet moved you in there himself is a damn miracle.”
It’d be a lie if I said I wasn’t surprised, too, because I expected it weeks ago, as well. Which I suppose might be why I’ve felt insecure all morning. Caspian is passionate about me in a way that I don’t see him with anything or anyone else.
Surprisingly, it takes some time to pack up all my things, which, sadly, is not very much. As we’re loading it into my car, Valentine comes out with a huge grin on her face and nods in satisfaction. My sisters tried so hard to hate Caspian, but he won them over fairly quickly with how well he’s taken care of me, and I’m so grateful for that. Even Christmas has begun to warm up to him, which is a miracle.
“You’re going to surprise him?” Her belly protrudes quite a bit now, and I’m so excited to be having a baby with her. Valentine is the mom I needed growing up, despite the strain I realize it put on her. But she never shied away from taking care of me.
“Summer decided to kick me out,” I tease.
“Hey! It’s not my fault that stick popped up pink.” My eyes widen at her. I had wanted to tell Caspian first.
“You’re pregnant?” Valley’s stunned tone has me biting my lip. I’d hate to disappoint her.
“Yes.”
She’s contemplative for a moment too long before a smile brightens her face, and she wraps me up in a bear hug. “I’m so happy for you both as long as this is what you want.”
“It is.”I think.I’ve always wanted children, as many as I could have, but truthfully, I hadn’t imagined finding the love of my life so quickly.
“Good.” She waves Summer and me off as we drive away.
