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My initial reaction was to glance at the mirror and then immediately look away. That’s what I always did. I would catch my reflection as I walked by a city building and turn away. When I brushed my teeth, I stared at my toes. If anyone took my picture and asked if I wanted to make sure it was okay, I always waved them off and said, “I’m sure it’s fine.” All so I didn’t have to look at myself.
But after turning away the way I always did, I found myself looking back toward the mirror, hesitantly, slowly, but surely. I bit my lip as I looked at myself. It felt strange to say it, but... well, I looked a little hot.
The bra accentuated my full chest and made me feel curvy and sensual instead of fat and lumpy. I messed up my hair and even quickly added some eyeliner I saw lying unused on the dresser. I smudged it to soften it and stepped back again.
Frowning at my sweatpants, I dug through my drawer again and found a black thong I purchased so I didn’t have panty lines in a dress I never ended up being brave enough to wear. I kicked off my sweatpants and pulled on the thong and assessed the full image in the mirror.
Sure, I should probably shave and I couldn’t help but notice my thighs could use a little toning, but I kind of liked what I saw.
I realized my phone had been beeping and I didn’t even hear it. I scrolled through Ellis’s messages.
ELLIS:How’sit going?
ELLIS:Is it on?
ELLIS:Fuck, did you choke yourself with one of the straps?
ELLIS:Shit, your mom is going to kill me.
I chuckled. At least I would make the day of the obituary writer a little more colorful if that was indeed the way I kicked the bucket. I typed a text message back to Ellis.
TESSA:Still breathing. Bra on. Not terrible I guess. What now?
ELLIS:Okay, now... tell me what you want.
I blinked a few times at the screen. What I want? What does that mean? I glanced back up at myself in the mirror. What I want?
TESSA:Huh?
I felt myself holding my cell phone more and more tightly as I waited for what Ellis would say next.
ELLIS:Pretend I’m whatever his name is and tell me how you want me to fuck you.
And just like that, I was hot and plenty aroused again. I stumbled back until the back of my knees hit the edge of my bed and I sank to the mattress.
TESSA:Uh…maybe this isn’t such a good idea.
ELLIS: You’re the one who asked for lessons. This is a lesson. Now tell me how you want to be fucked.
Trembling, I texted him back.
TESSA:I don’t know how.
ELLIS:Yes, you do.Tessa, you’re alluring as hell. You deserve to have a guy on his knees for you. All you have to do is say the words.
I shifted nervously on the edge of my bed and scratched at the back of my neck.It’s just Ellis, I told myself. He’s just trying to help me, not turn me on. The worst that could happen is that he’d tease me about this for the rest of my life. But he’d been the one to start this Pretend I’m Cade thing. The New Tessa twisted and turned under the skin of Old Tessa, and I knew what I had to do.
I was going to tell Ellis how I wanted him to fuck me.
Him, not Cade.
I exhaled slowly and lay back on the bed.
TESSA:I want you to push me back onto the bed.
In my imagination, I could almost feel Ellis’s hot hands against my skin when he pushed me back.
ELLIS:Good.What next?
