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I’ve cataloged them all in my mind and now they’ve come crawling back from the dark corners were I’d tucked them.
I’ve never done this…
You are the sexiest woman I have ever met…
I usually last a lot longer than that, but fuck, you…
Because I sure as fuck have been thinking about you…
You have a great ass…
I’ve never fucked anyone in a bathroom before…
I would never make a fool of you…
It’s the best pussy I’ve ever had…
“You’re scared,” he says plainly.
“Of course I’m fucking scared, Adrian!” I raise my voice.
“It’s okay,” Adrian offers while shaking his head.
“I don’t trust myself!” I yell and feel the tears clawing their way up my throat. “I don’t trust myself,” I say quietly, making peace with my admission.
Adrian rubs his chin and I can see the anger creeping up his neck, causing his eyes to burn brighter, the soft brown blazing under the fluorescent lights from above.
“I’m not him, Lake!” He raises his voice as his eyes plead with me. I can feel him reaching for me through the space, trying to get me to see what’s right in front of me, but my eyes are clouded by the past.
“You’re punishing me because of what someone else did to you, and it’s not fair.” He tries to approach me but I back away, warning him off with my eyes. One touch would be the end of both of us.
“I hate to break it to you, but your dick isn’t magic. You can’t fuck him out of me,” I say angrily and I can tell that my words hit their target by the hurt look on his face. “No matter how good it was.” I shrug.
“So I was just a good fuck to you?” He stands with his feet apart and his arms crossed over his chest waiting for my answer.
I have the audacity to flinch but quickly regain my composure. “We both got what we wanted.”
He steps forward lowering his arms, and he’s close enough for me to smell his cologne. It fills the space between us. “I will never get enough of you, Lake. If you let me love you, I will give youevery-fucking-thingyou have been missing before me.” The air becomes heavy like an impending storm, and I have to pull at the collar of my jacket just to get some air. “Tell me you don’t feel the same,” he dares me.
Swallowing hard, I fight through the emotions as I shake my head no, not able to trust the words inching their way up my throat. I’m too stubborn, or too weak – a character flaw that will cost me everything. I can’t put myself in a position again to be hopeful because I won’t survive it when it collapses in on me.
“You can tell yourself all the beautiful lies you want.” He shakes his head as if he feels sorry for me which is even more heartbreaking. “But I think we both know the truth.”
26
PLAYING DIRTY
World On Fire by Sarah McLachlan
The auditorium is packed with nearly every seat taken as families filter in, getting ready for the winter concert, proud and excited smiles on their faces mirroring my own. Decorations of snowflakes hang from the rafters, something of a novelty in a town that has never seen snow.
I wish I’d gotten here earlier, I would have been in the front row, but now I’m stuck somewhere in the middle. Crossing my legs I crane my neck, looking over the heads in front of me, searching the door as I nervously fold the program in my hand.
My purse still sits on the empty chair next to me, saving his place.
“He’ll be here,” Georgie says from my left.
Turning to her, I smile weakly. Knowing better, I didn’t save a place for Beth or Laura. We haven’t talked since that day at her house even though dad pleaded with us to put things behind us, forgive each other. Beth and I share the same stubborn streak, something we inherited from our mother.
