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CHAPTER4
ADALEE
Ileft.
As soon as Callum fell asleep, I ran.
I’m so ashamed of myself.
I did everything I swore I would never do.
Like the whore my mother always accused me of being. He showed me the faintest hint of attention, and I spread my legs without protest. I made a vow that I would be different; I wouldn’t be like her. And look where that got me.
When I was ten, and she told me who my father was, how she met him and then never saw him again, I promised myself, then and there, I’d never give in to a man unless he was the one I was going to marry.
Callum’s not that one. I wish he were, but he’s not interested in me for more than sexual relief. How could he be? I’m a nobody girl from nowhere, and everyone knows it.
Except Vivian.
She’s the only person in the world I trust, and now I’ve likely just ruined that.
Despite how wonderful it was with the man, how my body aches to go back and lie in his arms, I know I must stay strong. I must stay away. Which means disappointing my best friend and not attending the welcome home party she’s been working so hard on for him.
“God!” Screaming into my pillow, I ignore my ringing phone. I know it’s going to be Callum, calling me a whore or something worse. Or maybe it’ll be Vivian, telling me I ruined everything because I couldn’t keep my legs closed.
“You’re awfully loud in here. Should probably answer that phone, too.” Jensen stands in my doorway. For the three years I’ve known him, he’s been two things, a manwhore, and the best roommate a girl could ask for. He’s like the brother I never had.
“I did a stupid thing.” My words are muffled by the pillow I’m currently trying to suffocate myself with.
I bounce on the bed as he drops down next to me. “We all do at one point or another. Who’d you fuck?” Did I mention he doesn’t hold back with me, either?
Pulling the pillow off my face, I turn my head to gaze at him. “I slept with Callum.” Tears prick at my eyes, and my throat grows tight.
God, I’m so stupid.I ruined everything.
“I’m waiting for the punchline here.” My jaw drops at his comment. Doesn’t he get it? “Oh, I get it.”He a mind reader now?“I just don’t get it,get it.”
Such a male response. “I ruined everything. They’re the only family I have.”
“What am I, chopped liver?” He feigns woe with a smile on his face.
Rolling my eyes at him, I try again. “How can Vivian even look at me after this? I slept with herdad.”
“First of all, he’s technically her uncle. Secondly, she loves you to death, Adalee. Do you really think she’s going to hate you?”
“Yes,” I squeak out as my chest constricts and my phone rings again.
“I’m answering that.” Jensen sits up and grabs the device off my nightstand before I can protest. “Oh look, speaking of the devil. Hello.” I can’t breathe as a huge grin crosses his face. “No, she’s fine. She’s just under the weather.”It’s Vivian.“Sure, hang on.”
Moving the phone away from his face, he presses a button and holds it out. “Adalee? Please talk to me!” Vivian’s worried voice only makes me feel worse, and I shake my head.
“I know you’re there; Jensen said you were, so just listen.” She pauses before her voice grows thick with emotion. “I don’t know what happened today, if something happened, but I can tell you’re avoiding Dad and me.” I can almost see her frown. “And I just need you to know that whatever it is, whatever has happened, I’m here for you. You’re my sister, and I hate this distance between us right now because it feels like you’re a million miles away. There’s nothing we can’t fix over a pitcher of margaritas, a Friday the 13thmarathon on the projection screen in the backyard while scaring the neighbors, and all the brownies we can eat.” There’s a long silence as she waits for me to answer before she continues on. “I’m here for you, Ada. I’m always here for you. I love you.” The click as she hangs up feels so final.
“She won’t be after she finds out what a horrible friend I am.” Rolling over, I let the tears flow as I cry myself into a fit of agony that makes my chest feel like it’s about to explode.
“I don’t know what to do with a crying woman,” Jensen mutters from the end of the bed.
“Just leave me alone, please.” I need time to think. Time to figure out how to fix this.
