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She looked down at me with a huge hollow vacancy in her eyes while I pulled her hair away from her face.
“It’s not too late, Kinley. We don’t have to do this. We can tear up these papers right now and walk out of here together. I know it’s going to take work to fix what’s happened between us. We’ll fight again. You’ll call me an asshole, and I’ll tell you you’re being a pain in my ass.”
She softly chuckled.
“But I want that with you. Now, tomorrow, a month from now, a year, forever. You’re my home—you’ll always be my home.” I kissed her hands. “I’m sorry for not making you more of a priority. I’m sorry for not listening to your needs and wants. I’m sorry for not being a better husband. I’m so fucking sorry for everything, baby.”
“I know. I’m sorry too. I’ve been far from perfect these last couple of years, and you’ve been nothing but good to me since the first time we talked. I never thought I’d have a man like you in my life. You’re better than anything I could have dreamed of.”
The air was so thick between us that I found it hard to breathe, not knowing where this was going.
Hoping.
Praying.
“From the moment I laid my eyes on you, all I’ve ever wanted was to make you happy. You know that, don’t you?”
“Yes.”
“These last two months, I’ve done a lot of thinking. For the first time in my life, I felt lost without you by my side. I don’t recognize the man I’ve become, Kinley, and I’ve been trying to find him. That man. The one you met. The one you loved. The one who was made for only you. I couldn’t find him, but the more I searched, the harder it was to accept I may never be him again. Because he doesn’t exist without you.”
She leaned in to my touch.
“The truth is I do resent you, Kinley.”
She grimaced, not trying to hide it.
“I didn’t want to admit it to myself, let alone you. Julian found me at the bar this afternoon, and after talking to him, I realized how much I still didn’t understand what you went through—what you were, are going through.
I guess I thought I’d healed you.”
“You did, Christian. I don’t know where I would be without you.”
“We’ve both made mistakes, and I’m ready to stop living in the things we can’t change. If we can’t have kids, then it is what it is. We live another life, maybe get a puppy.”
She choked out a laugh. “You don’t want a baby anymore?”
“I want you. That’s what I want. Now please tell me you’ve changed your mind and we’re not going through with this. Please, baby.”
What happened next could only be described as a moment where God finally heard our prayers.
She declared, “I’m pregnant.”
Chapter Nineteen
—Christian—
With the wind knocked out of me, I replied, “I’m sorry, what?”
She didn’t hesitate in repeating, “I’m pregnant.”
“With a baby?”
“Yes.” She smiled. “With your baby. Our baby.”
Was I hallucinating?
“Wait, how?”
