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“Let me take care of you,” he added.
Even after all these years, those words still had an affect on me like they did the first time he’d said them on the Ferris wheel.
“Now be my good girl and close your eyes.”
I did. My heart was beating a mile a minute.
I heard him moving around, and when I felt the probe go in between my legs, I swear I stopped breathing.
Seconds.
Minutes.
Hours could have gone by.
Until a loud, fast heartbeat filled the silence of the room. I couldn’t hold back, I just reacted, bursting into tears.
Big.
Fat.
Ugly tears.
Unable to keep it in, it flew out of me like a tornado, taking down everything in its path.
I bawled for all the times we’d gotten a negative test.
For every month I told him we weren’t pregnant.
For every period I got.
For every dream that was ruined after every negative test.
For the names we’d picked out and could never use.
For the nursery in our home that remained cold and empty.
For all the love we had to give, with no children to share it with.
For the home we bought with no babies to raise behind those cream-colored walls.
For all the guilt.
The I’m sorrys.
For the years that passed us by fighting.
For the little girl who was told she was worthless.
For the mother I didn’t have.
For the husband I’d almost lost.
Most of all, for the baby growing inside of me…
I cried for it all.
I couldn’t stop sobbing.
