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“I know. I fucked up.”
“It doesn’t matter anymore. It was a long time ago.”
“I looked for you, Sophie.”
My heart skipped a beat.
Stupid heart. Don’t fall for it. Use your brain. You know he’s just trying to manipulate you.
“You’re getting what you want, Jax. You don’t need to tell me what you think I want to hear.”
“I’m telling you what I want you to know. I thought…” He shook his head. “The night we ran into each other, I thought we were starting fresh. I never imagined I’d be waking up alone and you’d be gone. Was that your plan the entire time? Fuck me and leave me?”
“Don’t flatter yourself. I didn’t know you were going to be there that night. Besides, it took you a minute to even recognize who I was, so save the, ‘I know how to love you,’ act. I’m not going to fall for it this time.”
“Have you taken a look at yourself lately? You look nothing like you did in high school. Especially considering what you wore that night. Your little white dress left nothing to the imagination
“You remember my dress?”
“I told you, I remember everything about you. Why didn’t you ever tell me about your dad being a football coach?”
“It wasn’t relevant to any of our conversations.”
“What else are you not telling me?”
I thought about it for a minute before I stated, “None of your business.”
“It’s going to be my business when you become my wife.”
“Fake wife.”
“Either way, you’re still mine.”
“For six months, Jax.”
“We have a son, Soph. You’re forever tied to me.”
“And that’s another reason I didn’t tell you. We’re nothing more than property to you. Just another trophy you can add to your shelf.”
“I know you’re upset about how I handled things back then, but for fuck’s sake, do you think this is easy for me? Put yourself in my shoes. I’ve missed out on six years of my son’s life! I’ve missed all of his major milestones, his birth, his birthdays. There’s already so much I can’t get back. You may think I’m being a vindictive prick and the truth is, I am. I’ll own it, okay? I’m not going to apologize for that. Especially when you show absolutely no remorse for hiding him from me in the first place.”
“Don’t pretend like you know what I feel. There were so many times I wanted to reach out and tell you about him, but then another scandal would break about you. Just in the past year alone, how many women have claimed you knocked them up, Jax? Can you put yourself in my shoes for one second? I’m not trying to play the victim. I know what I did was wrong, but I can’t go back to the past any more than you can when it comes down to us. I loved you. Wholeheartedly. You were my everything. I cherished the ground you walked on.” My eyes rimmed with tears, unable to hold them back.
“You hurt me in ways I didn’t think you’d ever hurt me. Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to get over you? You broke my heart. I thought…” I shook my head, wiping away a tear. “I thought you loved me. I thought what we had meant something to you. I never expected you to do what you did, and it killed me to realize I was just like every other girl to you. You got what you wanted. All of my firsts. For what? Huh? Why would you take it all from me; if you were just going to fuck me over in the end?”
“Sophie, I didn’t want to fuck you over. It was the last thing I wanted to do, but it happened anyway, and all I can say is my life was so messed up back then. All I had was football.”
“That’s not true. You had me, Jax. You. Had. Me.”
“I know.” He nodded. “There’s a lot you don’t know, and I’m not ready to tell you yet, but I will. Just give me time, alright?”
“I don’t care anymore. It doesn’t matter. Why are we even talking about this? I already told you I don’t want to talk about the past. It’s done and over with. We speak about the present and the future. That’s it.”
“It matters to me. Were you ever going to tell me about Ben?”
“Yes.”
“When?”
