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“It’s your call here, but have you thought about talking to Vix? She could help in this situation.” I stopped mid-chew, staring at him in shock.
“How do you know about Vix?”
“Oh, Jamie told me about her,” he replied, wiping his mouth on his napkin, all nonchalant.
“What? When?”
“The other day.”
“How? I don’t remember that.” I thought back to our conversations and couldn’t recall a single time Vix had been brought up.
“It wasn’t with you.”
“I’m confused.”
“Jamie and I talk all the time,” he said with a shrug.
“What?” I was completely lost.
“Yup. We’re friends on snapchat now.”
“You twosnapchat?” I asked slowly.
“Oh yeah. We’re both far too amused by the filters. We send tons of snaps back and forth most days.”
“Oh, Jesus.” I rolled my eyes, taking a sip of my malt. “What am I going to do with the two of you?”
“I don’t know, love us?” he said with a shrug.
He said the words as a teasing remark, but I couldn’t help but notice the way I warmed at the thought of doing just that. I didn’t let myself think about it for too long. Perhaps it could happen. And much to my surprise, the thought didn’t scare me.
CHAPTER20
“Sadie….I don’t even know what to say,” Pamela said in a solemn and quiet tone that was completely unlike her.
“You don’t need to say anything.” I knew I was being flippant, shrugging off the severity of the trauma I had just opened up about.
“Stop that. You’re not going to brush it off like some small thing, and I doubt your therapist would disagree with me.” She chastised me lightly.
“You’re right. She would agree with you. It’s no small thing, but I’m dealing with it now.”
“I understand why you didn’t tell me, but I can’t help wishing that you had. I would have been there for you.” Regret laced every word she spoke. That was the last thing I wanted her to feel.
“At the end of the day, all that matters is that I’m getting the help I need now. And I’m happy. I think I’m actually happy. Me, Jamie, Thatcher, my submissives… I don’t know. It feels like it could be something that lasts. As long as I keep putting in the work with Dr. Jiménez. Though, knowing my luck, Jamie and I will be driven out of Apple Grove because of oursinful ways,and none of it will have mattered.” I tried to laugh it off, but failed miserably. There was no hiding my worry from Pamela.
“Yeah, about that. You are freaking out about nothing. You realize that, don’t you?”
“It’s hardly nothing! We got caught! That is beyond stress inducing.”
“No, it’s simple. You finally got up the nerve to try an actual relationship with not just any person, but a new submissive. You got caught, and now you’re freaking out because people know the truth.” Pamela counted off the details of what I had told her.
“I wouldn’t call it simple, but, yeah. That about sums it up,” I answered.
“Let me ask you this. What is it about being a Domme and being polyamorous that makes you so ashamed?” Her question caught me off guard, making me pause.
“I’m not ashamed.”
“It sure seems that way from where I’m sitting.” She scoffed derisively. “Why else would you be afraid of people finding out?”
