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PIPER
Thunder rumbles through the ground under my tired feet the moment I step out of work. If I wasn’t so sick of hearing my own voice, I’d laugh. Or maniacally cackle. Whichever would more clearly denote that I am losing my ever-loving mind.
The world seems to agree, via brooding cinematic ambiance, that today sucks. A flash of lightning? The patter of raindrops turning into a steady downpour? Sure, why not? All the better to wash away the last of the day’s hopes and dreams.
I lean out from under the threadbare awning and glance up at the dark sky. I’m not sure what I expect to see. Maybe a countdown clock in the clouds. Some sign of when the rain will end and I can resume my miserable life.
There’s nothing, of course.
Thick clouds cover the waning moon and the streetlight outside the downtown Child Protective Services office is still burnt out, so it’s eerily dark. I registered a complaint with the city four months ago, but the person in charge of replacing lights is probably as overworked as I am.
Still, all of that means it isdarkdark outside.
“Like my soul,” I quip quietly to myself.
Apparently, my week from hell hasn’t stolen all of my wonderful qualities. My self-deprecating sense of humor is fully intact.
That being said, the guardian I dealt with today wouldn’t find my joke especially funny. He’d probably call it accurate, actually.
Dark soul? More like a stone-cold bitch.
That’s the thing about working for CPS: you’re the face people associate with their child being ripped out of their arms.
It doesn’t matter that the face of the child in question is filthy, scrawny, and covered in unexplained bruises.
It doesn’t matter that the arms of the parent in question are studded with track marks from dirty needles.
They still thinkyou’rethe bad guy.
Or, to quote yesterday’s gem of a birth parent, a “raging bitch with shit for a heart and a bear trap for a coochie.” As far as things go, that one was pretty good. I rated it a ten out of ten for creativity and submitted it to the office-wide “Best Insults” email thread.
“You should add that line to your dating profile,” my boss, James, responded with a crying-laughing emoji.
What dating profile?I wanted to respond. But at some point, the self-deprecating humor isn’t funny… or a joke, even.
I deleted my dating apps months ago, only a few weeks after downloading them post-break up. Hence why I am standing on the doorstep of work trying to muster the courage to ride my bike home in the dark. In a rainstorm.
Because thereisno one else to call.
I don’t have a boyfriend waiting for me at home anymore, Noelle is working tonight, and Ashley’s car is the most compact of compacts. She went on a “save the world” kick last year when she got out of rehab and bought a used Smart Car online. Even if she were available, I’d rather ride home in the rain than jam myself into that death trap.
When the claustrophobia starts, it lasts for hours.
“Okay, Pipe,” I say to myself, hopping lightly from one foot to the other to psych myself up. “Here we go. Make it home and you can take a shower and put on your pajamas and eat that frozen stuffed crust pizza in the freezer.”
And die alone.
I groan at my own intrusive joke and shake out my shoulders. “It’s just a ten-minute ride. Then this day will be over and you can relax. Ready, set—”
To try and trick my own brain, I skip “go” and leap out into the rain.
I’m glad I didn’t bother with a hat or the cute-but-useless rain jacket I keep in the bottom drawer of my desk for occasions like this. Because this is a soaking rain. The kind that drenches you through and through the moment you step into it.
There is no protection from this.
I keep my eyes down at the ground as I run, making sure I don’t trip on the uneven pavement or slip in a giant puddle. Looking around is pointless, anyway—no one is out in this deluge. Even if they were, I wouldn’t be able to see them. Every time I lift my head, the rain blurs what little of my vision the dark hasn’t already stolen.
