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“Knox!” she cries out, sounding choked up.
“Shhh. Just let me fucking love you, baby. You’re bruised and I’m not going to make it worse,” I tell her, trying to calm her down even though I know that’s not what’s really bothering her.
“I-I-I don’t want this!” she says. Tears slip down her cheeks and okay, I’m fucking stumped if I’m being honest. I don’t know what’s going on with her and it’s making me feel useless. I’m guessing her accident is messing with her somehow.
I slowly flip us over until she’s on top of me. I sit up with her in my lap, my cock still inside her as I brace my back against the headboard of the bed. I wipe away her tears but before I can process what’s happening, she starts hitting me on the chest and yells at me.
“No! You don’t get to be soft and gentle. Not right now! Where’s the asshole who did all those horrible things to me? The one who called me a two-dollar whore! I want him back because this soft version is making me think about things I don’t want to think about! I want the stupid fucking asshole back!” she cries at me.
“He’s gone. I told you that’s all behind us now,” I say gently, hoping to calm her down. I pull her into me so that her head is in the crook of my neck as she continues to sob. If I wasn’t sure earlier, I am now. Something is definitely bothering her and I need to get her to trust me enough to tell me.
She’s stubborn as hell though, so I’m not sure how that’s going to go. I rub her back as she cries, soothing her until she eventually quiets down, and I realize that she’s cried herself to sleep. I let out a sigh as I place a kiss on her forehead.
Fucking hell! If I could go back to the beginning when she first got to Riverside and kick my own ass, I would. I shouldn’t have let the grief and anger consume me the way it did, and I definitely shouldn’t have taken that anger out on her.
I should have taken it out on the person who really deserved it, which is my asshole of a father. But it fucking sucks for me that I can’t go back in time to change a fucking thing and I have to live with all the shit I’ve done.
I knew it was going to be a long road for us but seeing her so emotional and crying at the drop of a hat is tearing me apart inside. I wish there was something I could do to ease her pain.
Letting out a sigh, I gently ease out of her and lay her down on the bed before heading to the small bathroom for a washcloth. I clean her up and then cover her before cleaning myself up. Once I’m done, I get under the covers with her and pull her into my arms so that she can continue to sleep.
She tends to sleep better when I’m next to her instead of when she’s on her own and that gives me some hope that maybe all is not lost when it comes to us.
Eight
RAINE
“Baby, wake up,”I hear his voice call out to me and I slowly open my eyes to look up at him.
Knox is looking down at me with a soft expression on his face. It’s one that I don’t want to dive into what it means right now. I take a quick second to look around and I see that I’m still on the bed in the plane.
I’m surprised that I even slept in the first place. Ever since the incident, sleep has been nonexistent. I know it’s only been a little over a day since shit happened but still. I don’t know how long these memories will continue to plague me, but all I want to do is act like it never happened.
I mean, Knox tried to break me and he didn’t manage to do it. Which means I can’t let what happened to me with those two assholes be the thing that does break me. I just… I just need to keep being strong. Easier said than done though, especially when you constantly feel as though your world is falling apart.
I’m pretty sure they’re both students of Riverside Academy, but I still don’t know who they are. They could literally be anyone since almost everyone there hates me. I’m pretty sure they’re both seniors.
I don’t think anyone from the younger classes would get themselves involved in this sort of drama. They wouldn’t have the balls to do something like that, especially since they’re all afraid of Knox. No one would want to risk his wrath since the guy really is an asshole and I’m speaking from experience. Well, no one except those two apparently.
I don’t think he’d set me up like that and then be all possessive, right? I mean, he was all crazy and possessive when he went to get me in New York at Bailee’s place. There were so many different emotions rolling off of him in waves that I thought he’d have a coronary.
Then again, what the hell do I know? I thought this place would be a fresh start but it’s been nothing but a rotting one.
Now that I’m thinking of Knox and everything he’s done, it puts me in a shitty mood. I’m not sure how to feel or what to do when it comes to him. And it’s all because he’s all up in my ass everyday now.
That truly began after my last hospital visit when he decided to change his mind about me. But I can’t fucking think straight when he’s always there, acting like a fucking dictator. He keeps telling me what to do, and I keep ignoring him which is how we always end up in some kind of fight. It’s fucking exhausting, always having to keep my walls up around him. My life has just become this never-ending loop with him in the middle of it. I’m just getting tired, so tired.
Though that hasn’t stopped him from being possessive over me. He acts like he cares but I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop, because eventually it always does. I’m waiting for him to go back to hating me when said shoe does drop.
Every time I think about him, us, this place… a sense of overwhelming sadness and depression suffocates me. It’s like a big weight sits on my chest, crushing me, and I don’t know how to get rid of that feeling.
Well, I do…
But I shouldn’t go down that road again since I had a close call already. But do I really care at this point?
No.
I don’t think I really do.
