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“No.”
“Well, that’s not very hospitable of you,” I grumble and I hear him let out a long sigh.
“What am I going to do with you?”
“Kill me? Isn’t that why I’m here? Though if you could get it over with already that would be great! I’m tired of living in this cold and cruel world,” I tell him.
“No. I’m not going to kill you. You’re here because I want to help you get better. That means no more fucking drugs or pills or whatever other dumb shit you’re used to doing,” he says angrily.
“Ooo, testy, are we? Why the hell do you even care? A person has the right to choose whether they want to live or die, you know.”
“I don’t care. I’m choosing for you and I want you alive.”
“You know how many times I’ve been told to kill myself in the past few months? I mean, there’s only so many times a girl can listen to that without wanting to actually do it, you know? Of course, you don’t. You’ve probably never been told that shit before, so why the hell do you get to decide my fate, asshole?” I snap at him.
“Because I care about you and I don’t want to see you in a casket or six fucking feet down in the ground,” he grounds out.
“Who the hell are you?” I question.
“You’ll know soon enough but not right now,” he says.
“Whatever, asshole! I don’t need your help. I just want to leave!” I scream at him. Ugh! Why do people think they can tell me what to do or get me to do things I don’t want to?
“I don’t want to get clean. I just want to stay in my drug-fueled cocoon until I can finally die in peace by myself. Is that too much to ask for? Sheesh!” I realize that he didn’t answer me and when I call out for him, there’s no answer. I have no clue if he’s still there watching me or if he’s gone.
Thirty
RAINE
I let out a huff,thinking about this guy who has the absolute motherfucking audacity! Who the hell kidnaps someone? I mumble some choice words into the empty room especially about what I think of all this.
I think about how unfair my life has been since I stepped foot into Riverside. It all went downhill from that moment and has fucking sucked since. I swear if I had known all of this would happen, I’d have just demanded to live on my own and stayed in New York.
Since my mother was all about Jonathan Riverside, not even caring about anyone or anything else, she jumped at the chance to move. Now that I know why, I’m thinking she maybe wouldn’t have cared if I stayed since all she could see was him.
If only I knew, maybe things would have turned out differently for me. Then again probably not since I can’t forget that Knox knew and destroyed me from the beginning. I have no doubt that had I stayed in New York, he still would have found me and made my life miserable.
Let it go, Raine…I think to myself as tears fill my eyes. I can’t keep letting the last few months into my present no matter how much it still hurts me. Has it only been just a few short months? It feels like it’s been a lifetime since they started in on me. But now I have to try and let it all go and forget about it.Isn’t that what the drugs are for though?
Yep.
Not anymore though, since this dickhead is intent on not giving me any. I’m back to being angry again. This emotional cycle from one extreme to the next is exhausting. Is it too soon to be suffering from withdrawals? Because I think I’m having them.
Ever since I woke up in this stupid room, I’ve been feeling off. Right after speaking to that clown, I felt my anxiety ramp up a notch plus I’ve been irritable. My whole body aches and I’m tired. I wish I could sleep the rest of my life away. Though, since I’m currently locked away inside this room, I guess I could do that.
Not wanting to think about those thoughts any longer, I decide to get up and head to the bathroom since my bladder is protesting. As I stand, the sounds of clinking catches my attention and I let out a curse.How the hell could I have forgotten that I was chained up like an animal in here?
“Fucking dickhead!” I scream before stomping my way into the bathroom like I originally planned. The chain is long enough so that I can move around the room and make it into the bathroom as well. Ugh! Free to move around but not free at all.
I look around and it’s simple but elegant. The window is too small for me to climb out of and I let out a sigh at that. I do my business and then see that there’s a new toothbrush and toothpaste and use it before heading back into the room.
I make my way to the window and look out at the view before me. Yep, there’s definitely a forest behind this place and it definitely has me wondering where the hell I am for the millionth time. I mean, I love the view and all but I don’t deserve this shit. I hate the kidnapping part of this equation.
I hear the voices inside my head telling me that I deserve this and so much more.Don’t let their words get inside your head!
Easier said than done since my mind is constantly at war with me. I’m trying not to let their words or their voices win and get inside my head, but even that is difficult.
Even though it’s been a while, I can still hear them all being uttered. Each and every word they’ve ever called me is still stuck inside my head playing on a loop. I have to wonder if it’ll ever end.
