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“Yes!”
He rears back as if I punched him.
“You think that little of yourself?” he asks in disbelief.
“It’s not about me. It—”
“Yes, it is!” he interrupts. Donnie abruptly gets up from the bed and paces the room. He grips the back of his neck and looks up to the ceiling, letting out a frustrated growl as if he is trying to keep his emotions in check.
I sit and wait quietly, not wanting to push him further.
Donnie is his own storm. When there’s a shift in him, his eyes darken. I feel the change on my skin and deep within my soul. He waits until the right time to release the strong winds of his emotions, and his words strike me like lightning. He becomes unstable and leaves a violent disturbance in his wake. When the storm finally settles, he takes in the destruction he left behind and allows his heart to feel the pain he left behind, to punish himself for hurting those around him in the process.
I wish I could be his sun when his feelings are fighting to rip through the clouds and drench his world with tears of pain. I thought my tornado of emotions would pick him up and twist his heart with the blade of my past. All we can do is protect the ones we love, and if necessary, say goodbye to keep them safe.
“There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you.” Donnie’s voice is full of sadness. “You own my heart, just like I own yours.”
“Donnie…” I breathe out, trying to ignore the way my heart beats against my chest.
“Don’t.” He rushes to my side. Using his free hand, he tucks one of my curls over my ear and rubs his thumb on the side of my face. “Just don’t,” he pleads.
“Don’t what?” I whisper.
Donnie leans in and gently brushes his lips against mine. “Don’t deny that you haven’t been mine. It’s always been you,” he whispers against my lips.
He cups my face with his strong hands. “I love you. I’ve been in love with you for years, even when you weren’t with me.”
I knew deep down his love for me was more than friendship but hearing him say the words does something inside of me.
“To be honest, it scares the shit out of me.” He chuckles.
“What? Why?” I ask.
Donnie rests his forehead against mine and breathes out his next words. “It scares me how much I love you. I love you enough to burn the world down for you. To hurt anyone who breaks your heart. To keep you all to myself. To—”
What I’m about to do is probably fucked up, especially with everything going on, but I can’t help myself. I need tofeelsomething.
With my one good hand, I grab his shirt, pulling him in until my lips smash against his. He responds by wrapping his arms around me, pulling me closer to him. I moan in his mouth and then he pulls away.
* * *
DONOVAN
There is no way in hell I am going to make love to Shorty on a hospital bed, especially after all that she’s been through.
When I pull away from her lips, her sad puppy face makes me want to dive back in, but she deserves better.
She’s hurting and looking for a distraction.
I clear my throat, trying to slow down the racing of my heart as it threatens to rip out of my chest.
“Baby, if you keep making those noises, I won’t be able to stop.”
“I don’t want you to stop,” she purrs.
My entire body stills.
She has no idea what she’s asking of me. I haven’t had sex since before she came back into my life, and trust me, my guy is itching to get some Shorty action.
