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“I don’t know what you want from me. You have the ranch. You have your family. I have nothing here. I took a risk coming here and leaving everything behind so that I could be part of something special. But all I feel like is I’m a burden that you don’t want here. Those little glimmers of magic we can make are the only things keeping me going. So forgive me for wanting to make some magic on my own. Performing is who I am. It’s what I do. It’s part of my soul that I’m leaving out on the stage and sharing with everybody. I was meant for this. I don’t think I could do anything else. You seem to think it’s a cross to bear, but it’s not. It’s as vital to me as breathing.”
“I don’t think that. I never said that.”
“You could have fooled me.”
We stood there together, close enough to touch, but not allowing that connection. His eyes were trained on me, jaw clenched, body tense.
“I need to know. Do you want me or not?” That question hung heavy in the air between us. I hadn’t quantified it by asking if he wanted to make music with me, or if he wanted me, and I didn’t correct myself.
His brows pulled together, and he bit his lower lip.
“Look at me, Killian,” I said, voice shaking. “Do. You. Want. Me?”
The vulnerability flashing in his eyes told me he was desperate for me to give him an out. To clarify what I meant. So I reached out and cupped the back of his neck, pulling him closer to me until our faces were nearly touching. I could smell the whiskey on his breath, the scent of his aftershave, and I needed more. Closing my eyes, I pressed my forehead to his and just breathed him in.
“Do you want to do this?” I whispered.
He only uttered one soft trembling word. “Yes.”
The dam broke between us at his consent. I crushed our mouths together in a frantic, hungry kiss filled with all the pent-up longing I’d been hiding behind our just friends façade. His lips were warm and soft against mine, but his hands in my hair were rough and wild.
“Fuck, Jamie,” he groaned into my mouth, walking us backward until I slammed into the wall.
His tongue slid past my lips, and God, did he taste good. I wanted more.
Pulling away, he stared at me, eyes bright with confusion. “I thought…you turned me down. I thought I misread things again.”
“I’ve been trying to keep my distance. I don’t want to muck it all up between us, Kill. I’m not the guy for you.”
“I’ll be the judge of that.”
I grabbed his hips and pulled him firmly against me, the hard ridge of his cock pressed to my aching length, making me groan in response. “I want you. Can you feel that? You didn’t misread a bloody thing.”
He groaned against me, then pressed his mouth to mine as his heated touch trailed down to cup my rock hard length.
“But you’re not…Jamie, you’re not gay.”
“No, I’m not. I’m bi.”
“What?”
“Is it that hard to believe?” I grinned against his mouth, rocking my hips forward in search of more of him.
“No. Especially not with the evidence right here in my hand.”
Twisting my head, I feathered my lips over the pulse in his throat. “Just because I’m not public about my sex life doesn’t make me beholden to what the press wants to label me as. I’ve been with more women than I have men, but since the moment I walked through your door, the only person I’ve seen is you. I can’t stop seeing you. Even when I close my eyes.”
“Fuck, Jamie, I thought I was the only one.”
“You definitely weren’t.” I kissed him again, desperate for more, but the door rattled, and Frankie’s voice called, “Have you two killed each other yet? Or have you made up?”
Killian pressed his forehead to mine and exhaled a shaky breath. “It’s all right, Frankie. We’ll be out in a second.”
“It’s best you two go out the back. The press is out here waiting for you. And I’m sure they’re gonna have a hell of a lot of questions with the way the two of you looked like you were about to come to blows.”
Killian gave a sharp, jerky nod even though she couldn’t see him, then grabbed me by the face and kissed me hard. “We’re not done with this conversation,” he murmured.
As far as I was concerned, the only conversation we were going to have was going to involve me getting him on his back, so I could worship every inch of his body.
