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And at the dirty, rotten center of it all, I knew the reason I’d been so off my game for two days.
I had hurt Nathan the other night.
All I could picture was Nathan on his knees in front of me, licking lemonade from my skin. His gaze as he looked up at me, saying only one thing with his eyes:I’ll do anything for you. The kind of look that was exactly what I craved in every moment with him. That got me harder than a fucking rock but also crept into my mind and made itself at home there, because I’d let it. I had trusted him.
What was supposed to be themostcasual hookup had somehow become the perfect fucking recipe for Kace Tomlin catnip.
Every time I’d teased Nathan about wanting more, I’d expected him to finally get grossed out by me. To reject me. To cast me aside like an unwanted toy. And instead, he kept giving memorethan I wanted, in leaps and bounds. And I’d gotten addicted. Somewhere along the line, I’d realized I wanted the unthinkable.
I didn’t just have a crush on Nathan. I wanted him. The unavailable straight guy.
And then the bubble was shattered in an instant with his casual-ass goddamn words.
I toweled off after my shower, scrubbing at my skin. As I was pulling on a pair of shorts, I heard my phone ringing from in my locker and I pulled it open.
I hated that it felt like my chest was deflating when I didn’t see the nameNathanon the screen.
“I’m fucked,” I answered the phone after seeing that it was Callie.
I heard her snort on the other end. “Good fucked or bad fucked?”
“Fuckedfucked,” I said, sighing and sitting down on one of the wooden benches in the locker room.
“Lay it on me,” she said.
“I’m being rude. I should at least ask you why you called before I dump all of my stuff on you. How are you, Callie?”
“You’re not going to like my answer to that.”
The corner of my mouth tugged upward, just a little. “You’re already getting me closer to smiling than I have been in two days, so I’d say I’m down for anything you want to tell me.”
“Well, I called to tell you that I had the best night of my life last night,” she said. “But it sounds like you’re doing fucking terribly, so I kind of feel bad about it now.”
“Cal, I can be happy for you even if I’m in my own personal hell right now and I’m jealous asfuck,” I joked. “Tell me everything. You went on a date, right?”
“It was supposed to be a nothing date. Some guy I met on an app, and honestly, he seemed boring from his profile. But from the moment we were in person together… it wasfire, Kace. Fucking fire. We clicked, to say the least.”
I raised my eyebrows, cradling my phone near my ear as I tugged on a pair of socks and shoes. “Damn, you don’t usually say that about anyone.”
“Hell, no, I don’t,” she said. “And I’m still going to give it time, just to make sure he isn’t going to suddenly change his tune once I get to know him. But it felt real. It felt easy. In the kind of way dates don’t usually feel easy. We slept together, but we didn’t even have sex. We just slept, next to each other, comfortably.”
My heart ached in my chest. “Confirmed jealous, right here.”
She sighed. “You wouldn’t want this anyway. You’re much more of a five-hot-guys-in-the-hot-tub kind of person than a relationship and commitment guy.”
I bit the inside of my cheek. “That’s exactly why I’m fucked.”
She gasped. “No.Do you actually want someone?”
“I think I’m going to puke just saying this, but maybe. And maybe it’s someone I really should not want.”
“One of your teammates?”
“Thank God, no. It’s a straight guy who has a fifteen-year-old daughter.”
“Oh my God, you’re falling for Hot Dad. The guy I met at the party?”
“Yes. And I think the moment I realized that I was in way too deep and falling for him was about ten seconds before he told me that I was just a wild experiment for him.”
