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My mouth opens, and when it finds no words to say, it closes again. It shouldn’t be a surprise since he cleans me up every night, but I dislike that he studies me in my ugliest form.
“You know, for someone who claims not to be a stalker, you have obvious stalkerish behavior, Adrian.”
“A stalker would never openly admit to watching you sleep. If anything, they’d keep it a secret for as long as possible.”
I narrow my eyes on him. “You’re still a stalker.”
“If you say so.”
“You really don’t care, do you?”
“No, and neither should you, Lenochka. The world means nothing if you decide it doesn’t.”
“I’m not you, Adrian. I care.”
“Why would you when it’d only hurt you?” His hand glides in circles on the small of my back, eliciting shudders from my skin. “You’re better than that.”
“No, I’m not.”
“Yes, you are.”
“How do you know?”
“I just do.” A strange look passes in his eyes. It’s brief and quickly disappears as he says, “Since when did you start to have nightmares?”
“No particular date. Everyone has them.”
“Not like you. They seem more…raw.”
“It’s because they are. Sometimes, it takes me long minutes to differentiate between reality and a nightmare. Sometimes, what I have a nightmare about comes true.” My lips tremble at that, recalling how he was shot by Luca. Is that also something that will happen in the future?
“I presume this started a long time ago?”
I shake myself out of those thoughts. “Since I was a child. How did you know?”
“They seem deep-seated, and childhood events could produce that type of wild subconscious.”
“Are you my shrink now?”
“Not your shrink, no. I’m merely trying to understand that part of you better.”
I don’t know why that warms my heart, why everything in me becomes even more tender at those words. He shouldn’t care, he really shouldn’t, so why does he?
“There’s nothing to understand, not when I don’t understand it myself.”
“Hmm. We’ll see.”
I pause, watching the easy expression on his face. “How about you?”
“Me?”
“Do you know about trauma from childhood events because you went through something yourself?”
“Perhaps.”
“Is that a yes or no?”
“Neither.”
