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“Would I be lamenting over this if I had?” I roll my eyes. “No, we don’t talk about stuff like that. It just doesn’t come up.”
“Because other things come up when he sees you.” She laughs at her own joke. “Ask him, Sienna. You can’t read minds.” She pauses. “Can you?” I laugh this time and shake my head.
“He is my boss, and we have had sex a few times—well, only since we got here, but before that, we did other stuff.” She is lapping up my details, and I am relieved to tell someone because I have been too afraid to say any of this out loud.
“Only here?” I can see where this will go if I tell her.
“Yeah,” I stutter a bit. “It was the first time—my first time.”
“Like ever?” She’s as horrified as he was in the hot tub, and I just nod. I don’t know how to explain it. “Wow, and that is not a judgmental wow.” She speaks.
“I think I have fallen in love with my boss, and he’s going to leave and wreck my heart when he does.” I sigh and cover my eyes because I want to cry. “I feel like a fool. How did I end up in this mess? There are rules in place to stop this from happening. I am going to end up jobless and have to go back to teaching in public schools, which will send me straight to the nut house.”
“He isn’t going to tell anyone, Sienna. I only met him this weekend, but I think he is one of the good ones.” He is one of them, she is not wrong. I have never met a man like him. I know he is an amazing man because of the way he loves his kid and the respect he has shown me at work and when we are doing otherstuff. It’s why I fell for him so hard. He is the whole package, and I don’t even care that he’s a billionaire or any of that. It’s who he is as a person that I am attracted to. “You should talk to him about how you feel, maybe when they come back. I can distract Nova for a while, and you can talk.”
“You’re right. I just don’t know how to start the conversation without sounding desperate.” I am not that forward with men, or anyone really.
“Why would you sound desperate?” Andie asks me.
“I am a nanny, and he’s a bazillionaire.” That’s just one reason, “He’s way older than me. I don’t know. I have a thing about women going after men. If he wanted this to be more, he’d say so.” Andie laughs.
“Unless he is painfully shy and has social anxiety, or thinks you don’t like him back, or is afraid he might get rejected. Men have the same insecurities we do, some of them even more so.” I haven’t even given that much thought, and Lance can be reserved. He wasn’t thrilled about coming here with them. “Talk to him. I will grab Nova and take the three boys down to the boat club for ice cream.” I appreciate her offer. It might be the only way to calm my racing thoughts.
“Thanks, Andie,” I say. “I haven’t really had anyone to talk to. I can’t exactly call my mom and chat about banging my boss. She’d have a heart attack.”
“I am always around to listen if you need me, Sienna.” She gives me a wink, and I start overthinking what I am going to say to Lance.How do I tell him how I feel without sounding silly?
Andie and I enjoy the peace and quiet while the men and boys are gone—it’s blissfully silent. I’m grateful for this extra day. It’s given me a chance to think and now a chance to try to talk to him about how I feel.
NINETEEN
LANCE
Yesterday, things felt off with Sienna when I came back from being on the water with the guys. She looked as if she wanted to say something—but never did. The moment Andie took everyone out, and I had her alone again, all I could think of was sinking my cock into her. Taking every last second we could have together and using those precious moments to worship her gorgeous body with kisses. I whisked her back to the room and took full advantage of us having the whole place to ourselves, making sure she screamed my name when she came this time.
The extra day was worth it, but this morning, there’s an awkwardness between us, as if something was left unsaid. I want to ask her, but there’s not been a moment alone, and now we are about to get into the car and drive back to reality. Where she sleeps down the hall and not in my bed, where she is my son’s nanny and not my girlfriend. I hate reality, because being away from it, I have fallen in love with her. I spent a long-time avoiding love, but Sienna has somehow made me fall. She’s pulled away this morning, and I keep trying to look at her and see what is wrong, but she looks away whenever I do. Like she’s avoiding the question she knows I am going to ask her.
I wish we could have what we have here when we get home, that the chemistry and time alone will stay like this. I don’t want to have to hold myself back with her. Losing what we have now would suck, and I am not sure I’d be able to just stop now. How can I have her right there and not want her or touch her. It will drive me completely insane.
“We should do this again before you leave.” Brad shakes my hand as we all get ready to leave. There’s a heaviness there. Everyone has lost their excitement. Being here was good for me, and Nova and Sienna—this was a break I didn’t know I needed until I got it.
“That sounds great. I am sure the ladies can arrange it.” I wink at Sienna, and she blushes.
“Thank you for having us. This was really awesome,” Nova says thank you, and we all clamber into cars wishing we had an extra-extra day, but everyone needs to get back today. Nova sighs as we get in the car, and I look at his face in the mirror.
“Buddy, they live downstairs. You will see them at home,” I say and he shrugs a breath out.
“But there’s not a lake or a boat, or fish at home,” he says, and I get it—we live a city life. The apartment and our building are about all he sees unless they go out and do something. Even then it’s in the city. He loved it out here, and we are moving from one big city to another. Maybe I should have downsized life not upsized it.
My kid likes simple things. He values memories more than things. “We will make plans to come again,” Sienna says, and I look over to where she is sitting next to me. “I know you had fun, but we can’t have fun all the time. You and I still have a few assessments you need to complete for your new school.”
“I want to homeschool. It’s not fair they can home school and I can’t. I hate school.” He folds his arms over his chest. He has never said anything about hating school before. I know it’s hard for him, and he doesn’t love it, but he has never been vocal about not wanting to go before.
“You are going to a new school. It’ll be different,” Sienna says to him, and he sighs.
“No, it won’t.” It will be different, but I wonder if that is a good or bad thing for my son. “It’ll be full of mean kids, and stupid teachers. All schools are.” I don’t know what to say. Everything about our move was planned around him attending a top school. He never once said to me that he didn’t want to go.
He stops talking after that for a while, and the car is too quiet. Sienna looks out the windows and Nova is sulking. He’s upset about having to go home, and I have to just let him be. Kids don’t always understand things the way we do. When the silence gets too much for me, I turn on some music—from my playlist this time. They can listen to some decent music for a change. I drum my fingers on the steering as we merge onto the highway.
