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“What else did you want to talk about?” she asks, taking my wine and sipping from the glass.
When I let out a sigh without responding, she picks up the hint.
“Oh…” Clearly rousing her interest, she turns toward me. “Your girl wants to play?”
“She feels safe with me. Safe enough to ask for things that I don’t know if I can give her.”
“Sure you can,” Eden replies with sincerity.
“I need your help. It’s just hard for me. You know that.”
With a nod, the corners of her lips lift in a tight smile. “I know. You know I’ll help you give her whatever she wants, but is it whatyouwant?”
“I want what she wants,” I reply plainly, and I can already see Eden’s expression hardening.
“Ronan…”
“Do I sound too desperate?” I ask with a forced smile.
“You sound scared. Are you afraid of losing her if you can’t give her what she wants?”
“Yes,” I reply with a nod. “I’m afraid of a lot of things, Eden.”
“Like what?”
“Like what if she’s using kink to mask the pain of something bigger? What if she’s only with me because I make life easy for her? What if she heals…and doesn’t need me anymore?”
Tears well in Eden’s eyes as she stares at me. It feels as if I’ve shredded a hole in my chest and everything I’m afraid of coming out is ceaselessly spilling from my heart.
“Oh, Ronan,” she whispers, a tear spilling over her cheek. I lift a hand and quickly wipe it away. “You are such a nurturer, and it’s something everyone loves about you, but it’s far from the only thing. I don’t need you anymore, and I still love you. She will too. If she’s got any brains in that pretty head of hers.”
A smile cracks on my hardened face. “Thanks.”
“You need to talk to her. Your heads both need to be in the right place for this.”
“I know,” I reply sternly.
“And if you decide this is what you want, you know I’m there.”
I drag a heavy breath into my lungs and letting it out feels like shedding a layer of something that was weighing me down. I feel lighter.
Eden wipes at her face and quickly composes herself before standing. I rise up from the couch and stare down at her.
“Thanks, Eden,” I say, pulling her to my chest.
She wraps her arms around my torso and squeezes hard. I almost forget how small she is for such a dominating woman.
“Where is your girl now?” she asks after pulling away.
I nod toward the door. “They put her back in the VIP area.”
“The VIP area?” Eden says with a smile. With her lips around the rim of the wine glass she stole from me, she adds, “They grow up so fast.”
“Very funny,” I reply, giving her a gentle nudge.
“I think I’ll go find her. Are you busy tomorrow night?”
She gives a shrug. “Nope. I’m all yours.”
