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Was it destiny or fate?
It’s not uncommon to hear people describe an outcome of a tragedy as the result of destiny or fate.Those concepts are different, and yet, people think of them as synonymous.Herman Melville explored the concept of fate throughMoby Dick, as he believed life was controlled by it.There’re the Greeks who believed in the three Fates—Goddesses who controlled the world.
Clotho spun the thread of each individual’s life and determined the complexities and major features of that person’s future.
Lachesis measured the length of the life.
Atropos cut the thread, determining the individual’s moment of death.
My parents raised me to be part of a make-believe life.
We’re not talking about fairy tales, though.Although, several times I’d wished someone would’ve appeared and said you’re the long-lost daughter of the king and queen of a secret country.It never happened.My parents did the bare minimum to keep me alive, until they were able to exploit me.
They fed me, dressed me, and sent me to school because it was required.Neither one of them wanted to lose me to child services.
Do I believe in happy endings and destiny?
I want to believe that we can control our future.
Then again, I also want to believe that love is our destiny.It’s not only about romantic love, but familial, friendly, and agape—love for mankind.The biggest love we never search for is love for ourselves, though.Children like Aggie weren’t taught the basics of self-esteem.
How do I know?
She’s a textbook case of childhood abuse.I used her life in my dissertation.I spent months studying the correlation between her upbringing and the environment her parents created.Then there’s the biggest factor—her parents were alcoholics and drug addicts.That poor child didn’t stand a chance to become a successful adult.
No one can survive after everything she was put through and come out unscathed.I would know.I’m an expert.I lived through tragedy, created my own hell, and burned to a crisp.
There’s not one book that can tell me how someone who’s broken beyond recognition can find love.
But after all my sins, am I deserving of love?
