“I need you to stay here,” I said. “Please, Carly, you’re all I have left. I can’t lose you, too.”
Tears rolled over Carletta’s cheeks. I pulled her into a tight hug before I left the house, jumped into my car, and tore out the driveway.
I had no idea where I was going or what I would find when I got there. All I knew was that this had to end. I dialed Felix on the way.
“I’m going after him,” I said.
“You don’t know where he is.”
“I’ll find him.”
“How?”
“He hasher. I’ll drop a location as soon as I know. Round up the pack, this is a war.”
“You’re too serious about her,” Felix said.
“If it was Carletta, what would you do?” I asked.
Felix hesitated.
“I know she pushed you away, Felix, but if she’d been taken, what would you do?”
“Whatever it took,” Felix said softly.
“I’ll text you the moment I know more,” I said and ended the call.
I put my foot down on the gas and sped through the streets, weaving through traffic, but I didn’t see the cars anymore. I let my body take over and do what I needed to do on autopilot, while I reached down deep to find Oaklee. I broke down that wall. She had to be on the other side. The bond would take me to her.
When I broke down the wall, I couldn’t find her. She was there, somewhere, but she was drenched in darkness and fading fast.
“Fuck!” I yelped. “Not you, too!”
I forced myself into the darkness, searching harder. I had to find her before it was too late.
23
OAKLEE
Iswam in darkness, and I couldn’t find the way out. There was no light no matter which way I looked. I knew it had to be around here somewhere—up, probably, because I was floating, wasn’t I? It was hard to tell where I was and what was happening.
All I knew was that, if I didn’t find a point of light soon, it would all be over.
Xantha appeared before me.
“Hey, sweetheart,” she said in a gentle voice. Her expression was gentle, too. She was smiling. It was all positive, but I couldn’t fight the dread that swirled in my stomach.
“What are you doing here?”
“This is my world.” She gestured around as if there was something other than darkness.
“It’s dark,” I said. “This isn’t a world.”
“No, it’s the absence of one. We get to fill in the blanks.”
I clenched my jaw so tightly it hurt. “I’m not doing it.”
“You don’t even know what you’re doing.”