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Danica whimpers and I surge up, looking down at her with worry. She’s got her bottom lip in between her teeth, eyes hazy but she manages a smile. “Good God, Camden. You’ve got a magic dick.”
I bust out laughing, loving that she lightened the moment because everything was so deep and heavy only moments ago. In a good way, of course. We both rocked each other’s worlds but we can still share a laugh when it’s all said and done.
For several minutes, I lie with her on the bed until the racing of two hearts returns to normal. I reluctantly leave her warmth to dispose of the condom and have not a lick of hesitation in joining her under the covers when I return.
Danica moves easily into my arms, resting her head on my chest. Her fingertips stroke the skin over my heart and her warm breath wafts over my skin. I take advantage of unfettered access, sliding my hand over her lower back, her ass… trailing fingers up again to skim down her spine.
With the fire between us quelled, I try to reason out what that is between us.
“Did you tell anyone we were going out on a date?”
Did I sound casual enough in my curiosity?
“No,” Danica says softly. “I didn’t think to, to be honest. You?”
“No. I don’t even know who I’d tell.”
She lifts her head and angles my way, a curious expression on her face. “Who are you close with on the team?”
I don’t have to think long about it. “I probably hang out the most with Hendrix and Bain. Coen for sure, but he had those months of being an asshole and now he’s got Tillie, so we don’t do much together.”
After a hesitation, Danica asks, “Do you want to keep this secret?”
“I don’t know.” That’s the honest truth. I know nothing because this is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. “This feels a little precarious.”
“Because I’m a team widow,” she murmurs.
“I don’t want to be the asshole who moved in on someone I should only be friends with.”
“I get that,” she replies with a sigh.
“And…” I pause, wondering how best to say this. I’m not afraid to express my feelings—I just want to make sure I’m clear. I shift our positions so we’re on our sides, facing each other. “I don’t know how to compete with Mitch. I don’t know if it’s a good idea to even try.”
Danica rears up to her elbow to look down at me. “I would never compare you—”
I move two fingers over her lips to silence her. “No. I know you wouldn’t do that. Not intentionally. But there will always be differences, and hell… maybe I’d be the one wondering about it.”
Her hand rests over my chest, her expression empathetic. “Camden… I can honestly say that not once tonight did I ever stack you up against Mitch. Not on our date, not on our first kiss, and most certainly not what we just did. He didn’t even cross my mind until you brought him up. But I can’tnotthink about him. I can’t control that and it might happen.”
“I know.” I cup her cheek and rub my thumb over her lower lip. “I’d never ask you to not think about him. I loved him, too, you know.”
“I had a lot of firsts after he died.” Danica settles back into my arms and I pull her in tight. “My first birthday without him. Travis’s first birthday without him. First Fourth of July, first Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. It’s almost been a year since the crash and I’ve had almost all thefirstsknocked out.”
“And I’m the first guy you’ve been out with. First kiss since Mitch died. First time you’ve had sex.”
“It was fucking fantastic sex,” Danica says and I can’t help but chuckle, giving her a squeeze. Her voice sounds drowsy. “Will you stay the night?”
“If you want me to.”
“I do.” Danica yawns and snuggles into me.
Reaching over without trying to disturb our positioning, I’m able to turn out the bedside light. “Then I’ll stay.” When we’re settled, I add, “And maybe we keep this between us for now.”
“Of course,” she replies. I’m not sure if she wants that particularly or she’s merely agreeing because I want it. Regardless, I don’t feel comfortable sharing what we have.
CHAPTER 16
Camden
