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"You have to relax for and take care of yourself, so that you can take care of her,” after thinking about it for a while, I nodded my head, and stood up. As we walked out of the hospital, Anita held my hands.
"Logan wait," my heart pounded in my chest as he faced Anita,my hands trembling with anticipation. I needed to know what was weighing on her mind, what words were about to escape her lips.
Finally, Anita took a deep breath and reached out, clasping my hands tightly in hers.
"I need to talk to you," she said, her voice quivering with a mix of vulnerability and determination. "When Chris first died, I blamed you. I blamed you for not being there, for not doing more."
Her words pierced through my heart like a dagger. I had carried that guilt with me every single day since the tragedy unfolded. My eyes welled up with tears, mirroring the pain etched on Anita's face. I had loved Chris like a brother, and I would forever regret not being able to save him.
Anita continued, her voice filled with raw honesty. "You and Chris were so close, and I always felt that there was more you could have done. But now, I understand. I know that you did all you could, and I don’t blame you anymore. I am sorry I h=gave you such a hard time. I guess I forgot I wasn’t the only one who lost Chris."
The weight of Anita's words crashed over me like a wave, overwhelming me with relief and a mix of conflicting emotions. I couldn't help but let the tears stream down my face. The pain of my perceived failure, the burden of guilt, began to dissipate, replaced by a flicker of hope.
"I loved Chris," I choked out between sobs, my voice strained with remorse. "I wish I could have done more for him, for all of you."
Anita's grip on my hands tightened, her eyes brimming with compassion. "Logan, you were there for him in his last moments. That's what matters. You held his hand, comforted him. You gave him love and support when he needed it the most. You were there for him, and that was enough."
Her words cut through the haze of guilt that had consumed me for far too long. Anita's understanding and forgiveness shone like a beacon in the darkness, reminding me that I deserved to forgive myself as well.
"You're right," I whispered, my voice filled with a newfound determination. "I can't let guilt consume me any longer. I need to forgive myself, not only for what happened to Chris but also for what happened to Kayla. I need to be there for her when she wakes up."
Anita nodded, her eyes reflecting pride and encouragement. "That's exactly it, Logan. You shouldn't carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. None of us blamed you for what happened. You did your best, and it's time to let go of the guilt. Kayla needs you, and you deserve to be there for her."
At that moment, I felt a shift within myself. The burden of guilt began to lift, and a flicker of hope ignited in my soul. I would honor Chris's memory by being there for Kayla, by being the best version of myself.
As tears flowed freely down our cheeks, I and Anita held each other tightly, our shared pain transforming into a shared strength. She embraced me as she had given me the closure I wanted.
After a few minutes, I breezed off to my house and took a quick shower and followed suit with a nap. It was a really short sleep as I was woken up by the sound of Kayla voice telling me to come to her. I really wish guilt was helping me as much as I was trying to heal.
I decided to go back to the hospital since I couldn't get any sleep.
The sight I saw made my heart leap into multiple places. As it was Kayla seated on the bed with Mark by her side.
Am I dreaming? Did I step into an alternate universe, and this was some multidimensional where Kayla was awake and hearty.
"Logan," she called out as soon as she sighted me, her voice slightly above a whisper. I reached out for her and pulled her into a hug.
"Kayla," I whispered, and I stare down at her injured rib, I wasn't dreaming, this is really her and this isn't some figment of my imagination. "I have missed you baby, God, I thought I would never see you again, my heart was breaking over and over again as I watched you lie on this bed,"
She cupped her arms around my cheek and pulled me into a kiss, her mouth tasted like mint, meaning she had brushed her teeth, I kissed her hungrily and that was when I realized that Mark was standing beside us and pulled out.
"God, I missed kissing you,"
"You aren't getting rid of me that easily Logan, I will stay around so that I can haunt you and all your dreams," she teased, and I laughed heartily.
"Don't you think the best way to haunt someone's dream is when the person is gone?"
"Well, it is, but I won't get to see your face and that will suck,"
"That is true, I have missed you so much Kayla, I love you," She glanced at me and then at Mark who stood at the side of the room without muttering a word.
"I love you too Logan Black," she replied with a smile. We talked for a while and laughed; I told her how I didn't shower for three days because I refused to leave her side.
"I knew there was some horrible stench that was hindering me from coming back to the land of the living," she muttered giggling and I chuckled.
"Hey, it wasn't that bad,"
"Yes, it was," A voice from behind me said and I turned back with a huge smile on my face.
