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“Secondly, I feel ganged up on.”
Dahlia lifts a shoulder. “It’s two on one, love. Youarebeing ganged up on. Spill. Who’s the guy?”
“There is no guy!”
Such a lie.
I’ve been staring at Gavan’s texts for almost two hours.
Gavan
Be available to come over tonight.
Answer me.
That should be off-putting, right? I mean, rude? I’m not at his beck and call.
Except you sort of totally are.
And you kinda totally like it.
I probably need to set some boundaries with him. Idefinitelyneed to set some boundaries with him.
Dahlia gives me a look. “No one checks their phone that much without it being a somebody.”
I wrinkle my nose. “What?”
“It’s a fact,” Callie shrugs. “So… Who is it?”
Oh, just the man who I lost my virginity to. Which I haven’t mentioned to you, even though you’re my best friend. Or even mentioned it to my sister, for that matter.
Because the man I lost my virginity to is the enemy. A man who almost went to war with both my family and Callie’s. A man who maybe didn’t give the actual order, but whose wrath lit the fuse which blew up the Banshee, almost killing Callie, her grandmother, and me.
Whichdidkill Sean Farrell.
But when I’m with Gavan, it doesn’t feel like he’s the enemy at all. When I’m with him, it’s more like for the first time in my life, something feels completely right. Which is maybe a bit of a problem. Or a lot of one.
I might need psychiatric help.
Because I can’t stop what I feel when I’m near him. It’s a seductive, magnetic pull that I’m helpless to resist. The anxious neediness when I’m waiting for his next touch. The throb of nervous energy and the sharp inhale of breath when I defy him, which is like taunting an angry lion.
AndGoddo I love it when he finally snaps and mauls me.
There was that one time he didn’t, which would be that first night at his home when I told him defiantly I wouldn’t be staying over, though he clearly wanted me to.
We’ve never circled back to that, and it’s never come up again. But it hasn’t gone unnoticed to me that he’s slightly more standoffish now, even though we’ve been having sex just about every single daysincethat night. It’s almost as if we got too close to a line, and then both backed off.
But I do stand by my decision not to stay over. That would have been…too much. Especially on the night I lost my virginity. Too intimate, maybe, like crossing a line from being just his fuck toy, which is fun and amazing, to…something more, which I’m not prepared to be.
But as for the sex part?
Um,yeah.
It’s otherworldly. Like, I didn’t know the human body could orgasm like that. And even though the first time was rough, and aggressive and wild, and I was tied up, it was also perfect. And hot, and not at all triggering, which is always good.
“Oh my God, why are you being so weird about this?” Callie sighs, ripping me from my x-rated thoughts.
I cover the blush on my face by slugging back half of my—admittedly delicious—margarita.
