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Of course, she was going to bring this up. I dated her twin, Jake, briefly when I was in junior year. The last guy I had sex with—the foster kid who ended up in Stoneview. What I always try to forget was that he was using me to get over his ex-girlfriend, and it was never going to last. They were meant to be, and he and I weren’t. I hate to admit it, but the bitch is right. I always seem to go for the guys I can’t have.
I’m about to retort something, but instead Lik cuts in. “We’re leaving.” He pushes Rose out of the kitchen at the same time as he says, “Shut your mouth,” to her.
As soon as they’re gone, Emma and Xi turn to me again.
My older sister walks to me, skimming the bruises along my jaw with her thumb. “Was it consensual?” she murmurs softly. Like she’s afraid to break me.
It’s not until now that I have to downright force myself to think about that. I pinch my lips together, digging deep into my heart and soul. I coax my mind to face what happened on Monday night and tell the truth to the people who love me enough to compel it out of me.
I grab my sister’s hand by my face and hold it tightly when I answer in an even quieter voice. “Yes.”
The hand I’m holding turns into a fist, and she snatches it back. She does her best to control her anger, to not rage at the fact that I had consensual sex with our life-long enemy. Because any other answer would have been worse. Now she’s frustrated at me, even if she doesn’t want to be. I can see it.
“I’m glad,” she says through gritted teeth. She spins around and walks out of the room, slamming the door shut behind her.
There is only Xi and me left. He’s looking at me like I just killed a puppy in front of him. Slowly he approaches me and shakes his head, clearly not understanding my feelings. “I could have given you everything you wanted,” he says low.
I peer up at him, a sob constricting my throat because we will never be the same way we once were. “But not everything I needed,” I ultimately say. I realize that with unbreakable conviction. Only Caden can give me what I need, when what I need is him.
Him and the way he doesn’t care when he forces me. Him and his dirty mouth and brutal tendencies. Him and his beautiful face and body. Him and the way he softens for me, turning away from the violence to open up to me.
My savage enemy.
My beautiful fiend.
Xi nods, noticeably dejected but not pushing it, and leaves the room too.
I let out a long sigh. Everything is fucked, yet somehow I feel lighter than ever now that they know I have been wanting Caden’s attention.
I grab my phone from the pocket of my jeans, and my heart explodes when I see I have multiple messages from Caden, except my focus is locked on the last one.
Caden: What are you doing tonight?
The message was sent fifteen minutes ago, and I quickly type out a response.
Billie: I have a fight tomorrow, so I’m having an early night.
Caden: An early night? With that house party going on? Come to mine you’ll feel more rested.
I shake my head, smiling. He’s turning into such a stalker.
Billie: I can sleep through the noise. I’m used to it.
Caden: My dad’s funeral is over. I’m all alone and I could use the company.
I wonder where Kay has gone now and how livable his house is after the fire. Did it burn the whole house? Surely not if he’s inviting me over.
Three dots appear again, and my heart squeezes from knowing he wantsmycompany and no one else’s.
Caden: I think my cock down your throat could really help with the grief.
My lower stomach tightens with need, but I roll my eyes anyway, as if he could see me. I have to pretend his crude words didn’t turn me on. Less than half an hour ago, I never wanted to see him again because of the situation I was in with my family.
Look at me now, virtually ready to give in to his request.
Billie: I really can’t. Fights are too important for me to jeopardize them.
Feeling like a dick because he did mention his dad, I add.
