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She offers a thin smile. “Thank you, Ax. Have a good one.”
Then she’s walking away and I’m left desperate for more time. I won’t let her slip away so easily. Not when I can still feel the ghost of her touch.
I watch her go, my eyes following the familiar curves that used to fit so perfectly against my hard body. How many times have I held her, kissed every inch of that fucking hot body? Too many to count.
And now here we are, two near-strangers exchanging pleasantries at a bar. The distance between us feels endless.
I down the rest of my drink.
She’s almost out when I push up from my stool. “Maya, wait!”
She turns, surprise flickering across her face. I close the gap between us in long strides.
“Have dinner with me, I blurt out in a rush before losing my nerve.
Her perfectly manicured brows knit together. “Axel…”
“Please,” I press on. “Just one dinner, for old time’s sake. I’ll keep it PG, I promise. I just…I miss you.”
I hold my breath as she considers, heart pounding. After an agonizing pause, she shakes her head.
“There’s no point.”
The breath rushes out of me.
“Goodnight, Axel.”
“Goodnight.” I watch her disappear into the busy street outside.
There has to be a way. I can’t let the love of my life go without a fight.
Two
Maya
The scent of his cologne lingers in my nose as I walk home, intoxicating me and conjuring memories I desperately try to forget. Axel. His name pulses through my veins. At the bar, he looked as handsome as ever. His tousled graying hair, chiseled jawline, those deep blue eyes that seem to stare into my soul. He sat so close, our knees touching, sending electricity through my body. I wanted to reach out and run my fingers all over his strong body, feel his stubble graze my cheek. But I restrained myself.
Our marriage crumbled under the weight of his ambition, but my desire never faded. Seeing him tonight, being near him, ignited the passion I’ve suppressed for so long. I ache for his lips on mine, his hands roaming my body, our slick skin sliding together. No one has ever made me feel the way Axel does with a single look.
After all this time, even being apart, my heart still races for him. I know I should move on, but when I close my eyes, all I see is Axel. His crooked smile makes my knees weak. The thought of his hard body pressed against my full curves sets my skin on fire. Leaving him shattered my soul, but I couldn’t continue living in the shadows of his work.
This wanting, this need - it courses through me even now as I walk away.I don’t know how to let you go, my love.
I fumble with my keys as I enter my quiet apartment, the silence enveloping me. How different from the warm home Axel and I once shared, when it used to be filled with laughter and passion.
Now I retreat to this cold, empty space. The silence only amplifying the loneliness creeping into my mind. As I kick off my heels, I catch a glimpse of myself in the hall mirror. Dark circles under sad eyes stare back at me. This separation has drained the life out of me.
After showering, I wrap my silk robe tight around my body. The fabric feels soft against my skin. But I yearn for Axel’s demanding touch, his calloused fingers trailing down my neck, across my chest. I take a long inhale, trying to push down the desire rising inside me.
Settling on my bed, I close my eyes and memories of our lovemaking flood my mind. The way he knew every inch of my body. How he’d bring me to the edge, again and again, before letting me fall over the precipice in earth-shattering bliss. I can almost feel his warm breath close to my ear, his deep voice whispering dirty things that made me shake.
My hand slides between my legs before I can stop myself, my pent-up need taking over. I imagine it’s Axel touching me, stroking me, as waves of pleasure course through my body. A soft moan escapes my lips. Fuck, I want him, need him. But as my orgasm washes over me, emptiness follows. My release only leaves me craving more. Craving him.
I look in the mirror and see the ghost of the face Axel fell in love with so many years ago. My warm brown skin he said was as smooth as velvet. Full lips he couldn’t resist kissing. Almond shaped eyes that used to sparkle when he made me laugh.
The generous curves I was so self-conscious about, before Axel made me feel beautiful. He loved every inch of me, cherished me like no other man. His hands knew me better than my own, memorizing each dip and crevice over our years together.
Until he didn’t touch me anymore. His work became his mistress and I, an afterthought. The passion we once shared faded, leaving nothing but loneliness.
