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Giana Carey is a force to be reckoned with.
She knows I don’t play games to get the things I want, and she’s turned it around on me. She’s legitimately making me get to know her before I take her sweet little cherry and claim it as mine.
Under normal circumstances, I’d be fucking irritated. Most of the women I come into contact with aren’t the type I’d like to get to know.
Ever since Julissa…
No. My mind isn’t going to my wife right now.
She’s gone.
Dead.
And I’m not about to compare some random young girl to her.
Fucking idiot. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Giana moves to sit along the edge of the rooftop, dangling her feet over the edge as if she’s not about to fall to her fucking death. I lied to her when I said I wasn’t afraid of heights. It’s the only fucking thing I’m afraid of.
Anymore, anyway.
I walk over to where she sits and refuse to look at the ground. I’ll send myself spiraling into a panic attack if I even so much as glance down there. Not exactly the meaningful impression I want to make on this woman.
Something inside me recognizes something inside her. I can’t explain it, but I want to know her better.
“So why is this your favorite spot in the city?” I ask, sitting down and dangling my feet over the edge.
I lean backward onto my elbows so I’m as far away as humanly possible from seeing the death trap on the other side of this building. I peel my mask off and run my fingers over the spot where it dug in a little too much on my cheeks, noticing Giana has yet to take hers off. I’d like to rip it off her so there’s nothing left for her to hide behind, but I decide to let her keep it on. For now.
She fingers the delicate chain around her neck and subtly shakes her head. “It’s really the only place I like, I guess.”
I think about her words, unsure what she’s getting at.
“This is the best place to watch a sunrise. You can’t find a better spot. And I like sunrises. Do-overs. New beginnings.” She mimics me, resting back on her elbows.
I want the coat and extra layer I gave her off immediately. Want to see the goose bumps prickle against her flesh.
“Everything ends, but not everything begins again. Did you know that? Everything begins. Everything ends. But not everything begins again. Like us. Once we’re gone, we’re gone. There will never be another breath inside our lungs after the last one we take. But sunrises?” She inhales deeply, pausing before letting the air go. “There’s always another sunrise. And this is the spot to go if you want to see it.”
“True.” I nod. “But one day, when the world ends, when all the atoms finally realign or whatever…no more sunrises. Where does your theory go then?”
She turns to me and smiles, and she’s beautiful.
I wish she wasn’t.
I wish she was just another nameless stranger.
“Doesn’t matter.” She shrugs. “I won’t be around to think about it.”
I let my head roll back a bit, glancing out at the darkness that lies in front of us as I think about this woman who somehow got me out of my lair to do something other than business. I want to tell myself that she’s just a hot piece of ass I want to fuck. Want to tell myself that I get the things I want, and that’s why I’m doing this.
But in some fucked up reality, I just know I care about her first time for some reason. Call it a penance for all the fucked up things I’ve done. I wonder, does this make up for the blood on my hands, the lives I’ve mercilessly taken?
Doubtful.
It’s just sex.
“Do you have a family?”
